Brothers

Chapter 46

Christians POV

It's been weeks since I saw Hardin at Vances house. I tried calling him a few times over the weeks but he doesn't pick up the phone. I blew it. I couldn't handle my emotions and sunk so low to drinking again, I ruined the relationship I spent months building back up. My brother hates me. I thought we solved everything at Vances house but I guess I was wrong. I'm so stupid.

"Hey." Anastasia comes into the room and leans against the door frame.

I look up from the stack of papers on my desk. I must have spaced out, I haven't gotten much work done.

"Hey." I give her a little smile.

"How you going?" She asks pushing off the frame and walking into the room. She walks behind the desk and stands behind my chair, wrapping her arms around me.

Before Anastasia, I never let anyone touch me. It was too painful for me. But I need her touch. I want her to touch me.

I give her a kiss and pull her onto my lap.

"I was just finishing up some papers before I quit for the night."

She glances at the stack of papers sitting in front of me and lets out a little laugh.

"Seems like you're getting a lot done. What were you thinking about?" She asks.

"Hardin. I haven't talked to him in weeks now. He won't answer any of my calls." I stare at the floor.

"Just give him some time. I'm sure he'll come around. You know how he is." She says.

"I just feel like all I do is fuck up. I'm a shit brother aren't I?"

"No you're not. Hardin loves you and you know that. If he didn't, he wouldn't of forgiven you."

"I know I know. I just... I feel like I failed you. I feel like I failed everyone. All I do is hurt people." I choke. I fight back the tears that want to burst through.

Anastasia holds me tighter, placing her hands on my cheeks. She looks at me.

"Christian look at me." She says.

I look up at her. Our eyes meeting each other. Tears fill my eyes.

"You didn't fail anyone. Do you hear me? You are the strongest man I know and I love you for that. You've been through so much and you made it through. You are an amazing father, and amazing husband, an amazing son... and you're an amazing brother." She says.

I stare at her. Her words fill me with hope. I exhale a deep breath and wipe the tears from my eyes. I wrap my arms around Anastasia and kiss her.

I love this woman.