The beauty and the wolves (EXO fanfic)

Chapter 36

A/N: Hello my lovelies!! Just wanted to dedicate this chapter to @blaire_26. Thank you so much for reading, commenting, and voting!😋 You have no idea how much I appreciate it!😊

Jin's POV

"Where am I?"
"Aish! Jjinjja?! You can't seem to stay out of trouble can you?"
"Appa?" I look around and I find myself in a garden. surrounded by flowers. I see him walking amongst the roses and tulips. "Young lady come over her." he said. I walked over slowly. "Yes?" I looked up and he flicked me on the forehead.

"Ooowww!" I yelled out. "You're lucky that's all you get." I looked at him. He just shook his head. "We can't keep meeting up like this, this isn't how a father wants to see his daughter." He said. "Mianhe." I replied. "What's happening to me?" I asked. "You're dying sweetie." he said with a sad smile.

I paused for a moment. "Is this what you want to happen? Those boys are still waiting for you." "I can't hurt them anymore." I said. "I'm trying to protect them." "That's a pathetic excuse. You're running away." he said. "You need to face these feelings, if not you'll end up with two broken hearts." "Wouldn't dying make this easier?" I asked. "Perhaps, your mother would be disappointed." I groaned. "I see what you're trying to do, you're trying to guilt trip me."

"Is it working?" he asked. "Maybe." "I deserve to die, I made them feel pain." I said. "Don't say that, you can't protect them from love. They need to learn how to handle this. It's not the end of the world." He said. "So I'm supposed to see him everyday and when he sees us together, remind him of what he couldn't hold on to. Remember the betrayal! It's better for everyone if I die. Then I won't have to feel like my heart is going to die inside of me!"

Dad sighed. "Fine. Have it your way." Two doors appeared again. "Take the easy way out, I guess saving you from that car meant nothing to you." he said. "I didn't ask to be saved!" I yelled at him, crying. "You're my daughter! what was I supposed to do let you die?! I wouldn't have forgiven myself..." Tears fell down his face. "Appa?" "don't cry." I reached up to dry his tears with my hands. At that moment I heard crying, heart wrenching crying.

"Jin. Saranghe." It was Lay. I looked at my dad. "Don't. Let's not do this again." "Do what exactly?" "I don't want to see them! Don't you understand?! I just want this to stop!" He paused looking up at the empty space above us. "Is that what you truly want? Is it really?" "Yes." I exasperated. "I just want this to end." He nodded. "So be it then." he waved his hand in the air and two doors appeared before us.

One to the left and one to the right. "The door to the left will take you back to the world of the living and the right will take you.....somewhere else....." "Where? Heaven? Hell?" He shrugged. "Whatever it is that you believe in. If you believe in a heaven, there is such a place as that. If you believe in immediate reincarnation then it will be that and if you believe that everything will end then it will." I walked up to the door and placed my hand on the knob.

"Limbo, that's where I belong. A place of nothingness for eternity. That is the only way I can ever pay back what I did to them." I whispered. My heart pounded and my hand stayed frozen. Fresh tears were brought into my eyes, blurring my vision.

This is how I will atone for my sins, for all the heartache, for all the pain. Just know that I will always love all of you and I'll miss you. My thoughts will belong to you even when my body has decayed and left this planet and even when My spirit is in eternal agony. There is a place where we can be together, a place where we both only know.

Without a second thought, I twisted the doorknob and opened the door, walking through; before I could regret it. I let the numbness wash over me as I faded away from life and toward my hell.