Let it be • Draco Malfoy

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He was pale, so unbelievably pale. The bags under his eyes had only worsened and his eyes were always so red you'd think he was permanently crying. His hands were shaky and his voice was non-existent, almost as if it'd been stolen from him during Christmas. I'd been staring at him from where I sat for a while, Harry had noticed and so had Hermione, both of them sharing worried glances. George has given up trying to get my attention, but I really couldn't help but worry. Luna told me I worry to much about people who don't think twice about me, which is true and always had been true. There was still a little part of me that was filled with dread from the fire at the house, I binned the clothes I had on because they smelt so much of smoke. I kept Mrs Weasleys jumper, I just washed it loads.

"Eurydice, I know you're worried." George said gently beside me and I looked at him. Once I realised what I had been doing, I scoffed and rubbed my eyes with my palms.

"I used to hate the bastard, detested him with every inch of my being. But now, the first thing I think of when I was up is him, I worry about him so much, I tend to forget to worry about myself." I admitted shaking my head and he just sighed and placed his hand on my head, pulling me closer to him and pressing a kiss to the side of my head.

"I know you hate yourself for if, but you're allowed to be worried and you're allowed to like him. You can't control that." George assured me and I sighed and nodded. I turned my attention away from Draco and Luna looked over to me.

"Are you going to see, Ron?" She asked and I groaned. I hadn't spoke to him since the argument on the train, but he was in the hospital wing as of right now because he'd been poisoned by a bottle of wine meant for Dumbledore.

"Yes, I should perhaps." I nodded and stood up, George smiled and Luna waved as I walked off. As I left the Great Hall, I looked over to Draco who was already staring at me. But before I could do anything, I was already out of the hall. When I walked into the hospital wing, I immediately knew were Ron was, with the chocolates and other things surrounding him. He was asleep on the bed so I took a seat next to him.

"You walk so loudly." He mumbles as I sat down, almost scaring me half to death. He chuckles lightly and opens his eyes, looking at me as he slowly sits up. "I didn't expect you to come see me." He said and I rolled my eyes.

"Ron, as much as we fall out now, you said it yourself , we're family now." I shrugged and he nodded.

"I'm sorry about what I said in the train, I didn't mean it." He apologised and I nodded, placing my hand over his in comfort. He looked up at me and I smiled.

"I know you're scared that I'll make the wrong decision, but I promise you Ron. I would never turn my back on you guys. But, this doesn't mean that I'm not allowed to be worried about Draco, I know him, he doesn't want to be in this situation." My voice was shaky and Ron just nodded, not saying anything more. I sat in the hospital wing for a while longer, Ron and I talking about Hermione and how crazy Lavender was. The thoughts of my doubt long gone as we laughed over a cup of tea. As I left the wing, I made my way down one of the corridors, coming across Draco. I was far enough that he wouldn't see me, I watched as he walked into the room of requirement, hiding when he looked around to see if anyone was following him. Once he was gone, I ran up to the door, it stayed for me and I walked through it, gently shutting it behind me. I slowly walked further into the room, checking every inch of it carefully, in fear of accidentally walking into Draco. But before I could stop myself, I was walking straight towards a large cabinet that seemed to have been placed in the room not so long ago. As I went to reach for the handle, I felt someone press their wand to my throat. I stiffened you, retracting my hand as I looked around to see Draco, he had tears in his eyes.

"Don't touch it!" He yelled and I placed my hands to my side, nodding quickly and stumbling back slowly with my hands held up in surrender.

"Don't hurt me, please." I whispered and he froze, slowly dropping his hand by his side again. He searched my face for a moment.

"I'd never hurt you." He whispered, dropping his gaze to the floor. I cleared my throat and nodded, still shaking from the interaction. I moved forward, going to gently touch his hand, but he flinched away. "I asked you to stay away from me." He whispered and I nodded. I stood in front of him, not moving.

"It bothers me how much I care about you Draco, when I know damn well that you don't care about me nearly enough. I know how much this is ripping you apart, you're conflicted-" I explained to him but he looked at me quickly, his gaze catching my own, tears and anxiety in his eyes.

"I am not conflicted, this is my destiny, CSNT you understand this?" He asked and I looked at him in the eyes, shaking my head slightly. I slowly reached up, placing my hand on his cheek ever so slightly. He slowly closed his eyes and relaxed under my touch.

"I can't seem to understand, Draco." I whispered, but he didn't open his eyes. Instead, I gently placed my forehead on his own and we stood in silence in the room of requirement, letting everything melt away.