My Big fat friendzone

Chapter 16

Chapter 16

Nights like this you feel oblivious and adventurous, not adventurous physically, rather adventurous emotionally and mentally, this roller coaster I'm riding has heaps of surprises and I'm so sure if its quite yet done with me. I was certain id end up having one of those unexplainable dreams, the dreams that happen to always be about love , the one where your stuck and theres no way out , and then you remember that one special person that you know is able to get you through absolutely anything and somehow you find a loop whole through all the madness, which infact is all just your imagination worked up during night hours. But lets face it, its times like this that help reflect on ourselves, the words we say, how we say these particular words, whether you were harsh or kind and as sweet as a button, whether you have haters or if your loved by every soul who has every heard your voice speak.who knows.

I couldnt sleep all night. Even at 3:00am! I was caught up, i realized that i cannot be able to handle my emotions, i don't know what it is that i feel right now, whether i love elias or just think he is a replica of Channing Tatum, or the other prince charming that i feel vulnerable but completely safe and protected with , jai.

If i was going to dream that night, what would i dream of, ha, i wouldn't know, i didn't have a dream last night.

A little voice began to conversate with itself, first the words and sentences were all jumbled up, like some kind of mystery i couldn't understand a single word or phrase, nothing. neither were the words clear i couldn't help but try to think far and beyond, then after thinking about the most littlest thoughts the most tinniest microscopic thoughts that are usually situated at the back of my mind, the thoughts that were far back beyond , dumped in the part of my brain were everything that i are not confident for are recycled.Thoughts of prom.

How can i help think that elias was just setting me up, the fact that elias and torrance always end up hooking up in the middle of the dance flood, even better right in front of my face.

As well as the fact jai has no date, why not, i asked him tonight, no answer, how about that girl he use to like in year 9, what was holding him back, he has good looks charm, kindness, warm heart, glorious wit and most of all, the protection and care not everyone in this universe is attributed with,why doesn't jai want to tell me about this girl, sure jai is shy, not around me though, something is fishy, jai has something to hide, maybe he is just waiting for the right time, he underestimates himself too much, he is so much more worth than he thinks he is. Bless his beautiful heart.

Hey guys, that was just small since i really need to get some sleep, sorry if some of it just jumps to other sub topics I'm extremely sleepy but i wanted to upload something :) soooooop goodnight guys! <3