My Big fat friendzone

chapter 44

Chapter 44-

Recap - “let’s get you home Mikayla”

When the red Chevy that just dropped me off picked me up a couple of ours back, I didn’t think for one second that the situation that I am in now would escalate s quickly. Why am I so affected by what went down between jai and I (duuh, you love him)

Lmao shut up brain, I thought I got rid of you.

It’s just those 3 words. I need to hear them. But I know jai, he would never… or maybe

BRAIN STFU. You a bastard

As I look up at the now setter sun and glance over at the street blue street sign labelled “Theodore ST.” I shuddered at the thoughts that came rushing to my head like an express train at the 5pm peak hour. Of all the drama that has gone down this part couple of weeks, the fact that what happened between jai and I played with all my emotions so much my rational thinking killed me to the point where I was legitimately at the point of perhaps losing my virginity to a boy I didn’t even love. How foolish of me.how selfish of me to not think of jai. How must he feel right now, I think Elias must have sensed my obvious frustration as I could feel   old man wrinkles on my fore head form. As he left in his car I had to gather myself fast and take my ass up to jai and see what the heel is going on.

Fin recap –

I won’t lie, the darker the sky became, and the more I began to feel scared. Usually I am not one to be unacquainted at this time of day but it was vital for me to clear my mind and set my shit straight and in order. I can’t really do people at this moment.wheres a mother when you need her, even if she was always on business trips. I miss mum.alot.walking along the pathway opposite jays house I figured a trip to the park would help me clear my mind since no one really goes to the park at night. As I was walking along the narrow pathway humming the tune to just Bieber all that matters I saw the same frame or figure should u say of the girl I saw before Elias picked me up. This is not a coincidence. I picked up the pace, god forbid I am being stalked. Jesus Christ I aint going through all that rape stuff. Making my slow steps into long, fast and wide strides missing a full block of pavement as I made my way towards the person who was now much more in sight.

As I got closer to the girl. I was so sure I recognised that red hair anywhere, even in the dims street lights her red shiny curls bounced flirtatiously, putting on a show of their own to be fully honest, I didn’t know whether I would a good idea to make conversation with Ruby. Seeing that she pretty much fucked me over a couple of hours ago. But something in me pushed me to. I felt like she, as well as all my friends deserved some explanation for my sudden 2 month disappearance. Maybe it would be easier this way to make amends... somehow. She still looked the same as before, just much more tanned, probably over the summer at the beach all day like we use to. Australia’s weather was hot and extremely tan weather in the summer. I realised then how much I really needed some girl time.