My Big fat friendzone

chapter 36

I know i know, its been ages. Maybe you hate me but ive has sooo much going on for me i coulnt wait to be able to come back and write. Im so sorry i took so long but im back again ! Ill average a chapter a week. And i already had written like 7 chapters after this but somehow they all got deleted. Im really cut

Chapter 36

Did this just happen, I'm use to people leaving me, lying to me, tricking me , but jai was not people. Jai was my best friend. And i like him , like

Really like like liked him. How can he even keep a secret away from me like that? I know he wasent being heartless and it was just so that i didnt chuck a mcnugget rampage like i did, i deserve to know these things i just..

Where was i going to go now, i have noone to go to this time, mum isnt here to tell me its going to be okay, i have no family and no friends. Why is life such a bitch to me .

Hearing myself sniffle made me realise how much i was crying. My sleeve was now covered in damp salty tears, my eyes cringed and blurred at the stinging sensation they held since i was crying that much.

I left my head up and use my right hand to lift any sticky hair out of my teary face and flatten my hair since the wind is picking up.

Deciding whether to go back inside and confront jai about his doings or to just go away , i found myself staring back up at jai's window to see him pacing up and down the room like a complete maniac with an adrenaline rush plotting his next killing frenzy. I kept staring at him confused, confused for three reasons mainly:

1. Why is he angry and or upset over this. Isn't he the one who didn't tell me about him being my bloody guardian?

2. How could i not have picked up on this , how could i not have paid attention to how he treats me , like IM the most fragile specimen ever created

3. Even though im so angry and frustrated with him, why cant i get myself to hate him for what he has done?

( you love him stupid, what are you saying)

Shutup , look what he has caused

( but he makes you happy)

Exhibit A. For christs sakes?

No he doesent make me happy

( nobodys perfect, we all do the wrong thing sometimes)

( and you love him)

Why do those words always give me goosebumps.

Staring at jai going bezerk in his own little world had got me sidetracked,

Im not going in there now, i need to cool down and he definitely needs to cool down.

I decided to pick myself up off the floor and walk, to where you ask?

I dont know for sure

Do i care you ask?

What is there left to care about ?

With This mindset i had myself in, i knew this was not going to end well,

Well, for me of-course, when do things even ever end well for mikayla?

I began to walk staring at the cracks in the pavement , imagining if inbetween every crack in the ground was a steaming hot pool of orange/red lava that would burn my insides if i even dipped a toe.

I became precatious? Ofcourse and began to walk like a complete imbecile. I hd just turned a corner and had no idea where i was going, lucky me !

As i continued my walk down the street , the sun began to rest, darker and darker, until the street lights were visible in sight.

My white converse, blue jeans and sheer top were not keeping me warm

This street looked damned deserted, did people even live on this side of glenroy? I mean..

I began to pace my walk as i had started to picture bad encounters with either rapists or skinny flinchy men in big black tinted window vans offering me exclusive european candy.

Im a sucker for gummy

Bears by the way

As i was more sprinting than walking , i finally noticed a more familiar car in faint sight, it was gettinf closer , it was driving slower... And i getting raped tonight or?

Please sweet baby jesus keep me safe, anyone please if your up there?

I pleaded looking up to the sky

This closer the car came the more familiar it became, the slower it got the more i felt my skin unfold and fold in itself,

Pretty gross aye.

Talk about melodramatics

When the car finally came to a halt, i had squeezed my eyes shut ready to take what was coming next , god i wish jai was here

No i dont he hurt me

( yes you do.)

As the figure in the car unrolled his or here tinted windows.....

It spoke. "Hey sweetcheeks, whats a pretty girl like you doing all alone with no company?"

Oh god. This was not going to be good

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So thts the end ! Im a bit rusty i know but cmon hand it to me , im getting back into the jitzzz of things, okay so back to the story, who do you think it is? Hmm hmm? A little cliff hanger there for ya ;) anyway thanks for the 1.8k reads ! What the holy shit biscuits i mean ! Thankyou is all i could say it means so much ! Next chapter will be uploaded next thursday hopefully :) happy reading !