My Big fat friendzone

chapter 42

jai's POV

where is she? I mean its been six fucking hours! where has she run off to? I miss her, soo soo much! what if she does something stupid after all her mum was definitely  not the best role model . all I want is to apologise to her. hug her .I don't want it to be like this, I feel gaaah' I feel like ' I can't describe the empty feeling in the pit of my heart right now.why am I such a boshhhhhhhh! why did I not hide that price of shit lined paper? since when did we keep secrets this big from each other ? am I that selfish? hide away the truth, make her fall in love with me for my sake? and just forget it all  i did to her like that! oh Jesus lawd, I am selfish . she's never going to forgive me.

I can't sleep. how am I suppose to? how am I suppose to do anything when the love of my life is somewhere where I can help. wow my love. shits getting real jai jai. I made my best friend, what the heck, I made the love of my life hate me  ! my eyes wont stop tearing up every time I think of how I hurt her, recall her face when she was reading that paper and looking, at me in the eyes,  her voice cracking, she was hurt. and it was because of me. I want her back here. I need her back here with me.I'll do anything to have her back, forgive me and be able to hug the life out of her. trying to fall asleep is not an option at the very moment. I keep thinking about what can happen, what she can accomplish if she was willing to and not in a good way , however I am the one who got her to this state, should I be the one who goes to the rescue? will she even let me. I'm soo stupid I don't know what to do.I keep hoping that she will turn up on my doorstep and the sweet scent of her will be the only toxin i need to send me over the edge. I need this girl more than you can imagine. she is the one. how could I be so blind to this?

I am utterly and pathetically in love with my best friend,

Mikayla

here it is! the chapter that changes  everything!!! what do you think? more coming up!!

okay I'm sorry I haven't updated. I swear to the lord I was suppose to upload friday  afternoon. yet I recently had a bad case if food poisoning so my tummy pains  are very

unexpected, I had to sleep. but I'm back for sure  ! big newwwwsss we had our half yearly exams a couple weeks back and I studied soooo much 'anyway, I failed so did the entire year 11 class, so we had to redo the exam and that day I got the food poising and all he'll was let loose in my stomach so I couldn't do the exam, a week later I went back to school didn't have anytime to study I couldn't prepare for anything whatsoever I didn't even get o revise before thee am and guess what, I didn't just pass, i came FIRST! I MEAN WTFFF I'm so ha

and i legjt thought I'd fail again! anyway I'm back and deter,aimed to finish this nook and start a new one ! its different concept to this but I hope you like it  :) thankyou again for 3K icnt thank you guys enough I love you solo much . okay byee.

ohhhBtw THE FAULT IN OUR STARS FILM COMES OUT IN LIKE SIX DAYS AND IM SO SHDBDNND!! CANT WAITTTT