The Boy in the Band

The next morning

I woke up the next morning my arm draped over Sierra's waist, her hair laid all over the pillow. Did last night really just happen. I slid from the bed and realized that none of my clothes were even in the  room.  I cracked the door and peaked my head out to see if anyone was around figuring Id grab my clothes on the stairs and run back in the room and dress. No one was around and I go to step out and end up stepped onto a pile of our clothes. I grabbed them quick and through on my boxers. It was only 7 in the morning and the house was quite. I figured I run downstairs and grab a bottle of water and get a shower. Im just hoping when Sierra wakes she still feels the same as she did last night. 

I walked into the kitchen and D and Jenny were already both up drinking coffee.

"Oh looking who decided to have a sleepover baybay"

"babe there was no sleep in the sleepover last night."

"Did you have fun last night Playboy, oh and we didnt mind at all babysitting Nathan at all."

"We went out to dinner and came back to talk"

"Oh cut the bullshit Joey, we know better how you think them boxers you have on ended up behind the door. We came home and thought you were killing her and it went all night..."

"Fuck off dude we werent even that loud"

"see you admit it you two were fucking, and I call bullshit we came up the stairs and it sounded like running in flip flops all night. Is See even alive after that."

"Very funny..haha."

"So Joey sweetie how did it go, I mean you had to have made some progress if yall were screwing all night."

"First off it wasnt all night, and we talked alot but I really dont even know were we stand. By the time we left McCartney's it was already starting to heat up if you know what I mean."

"Im guessing she isnt awake up there"

"No she is out cold"

"Maybe for the best mornings are hard on her"

"oh..I didnt.."

"Of course you havent been around"

"ok thats not fair you know..."

"Yes I know Im just saying."

Suddenly there was a small squeak coming from the baby monitor and I smiled

"He is up"

"yeah he is asleep in our room why dont you get your son Playboy."

I know the smile crossed my face and I ran up to D and Jenny's room. I opened the door to see him, my son the light of my life laying in the portable crib. I walked over and he looked up at me and smiled. I honestly had to fight back the tear that threatened to slip out. I reached down and pulled him into my arms and I honestly didnt want to let go. 

"Hey buddy daddies here"

he continued to smile and babble.

"Ive missed you so much..."

I didnt know that Sierra had woken and was standing behind the door that I left cracked open watching.

Watching Joe with Nathan did something to me, caused something in me to shift. I woke up when I felt him get up from the bed and walk out. I laid there thinking about everything and everything that happened last night. When I agreed to go out and discuss the pregnancy with Joe I had no intention on coming back here and fucking but the more I spent the evening with him and the more we talked I dont know my mindset shifted and  the more I think I realized that as messed up of a situtation he had put me in there was still no one I wanted more. Now watching him with Nathan I see how much he had missed him something in me I dont know wants to make it work. 

I took a deep breath and pushed the door open, Joes back was facing the door so he didnt even know I was there. The nerves slammed so hard into me it made me nausous. I walked over placing my hand on his back,

"Ill be down in a second Jen Im just changing him."

"Im not Jenny"

"SeeSee... baby your awake"

"yeah"

"he woke up and I was...."

"its ok he is your son too."

He finished Nathan's diaper and leaned up with him in his arms, Nathan had the biggest smile on his face, he missed his daddy I know he did.

"How you feeling this morning See?"

"Im ok..listen Joe Ive been thinking alot"

"about last night"

"listen I didnt plan on.."

"I know I wanted it too, but its not just that. Ive been thinking about everything even before we met last night."

"ok....?"

"Joe sit down"

He let out a concerned breath,

"Joe ive been thinking for awhile, yes I was pissed about what you did but honestly I think I was more hurt. So I thought the answer was to just walk away and the hurt and anger would go away but the only thing that did was turn into was sadness, depression. I missed you as much as much as I didnt want to admit it, I need you so does Nathan."

"Sierra what are you saying?"

"Im saying I missed you Joe, I love you I always did, I want to work this out. I want to come back home, me and Nathan. I want you there through this pregnacy. I want our life back, but I need to know that you understand where I was coming from. If were ever going to be able to work I have to be able to trust that you are going to talk to me and not just do what you feel you have to do to get what you want."

"Baby girl, I fucked up I know I did, I swear no more just doing shit on impulse Ill come to you. All I wanted is for you and Nathan to come home and get back what we had. Im so sorry SeeSee baby that I even did that you have to believe me, If I could go back and take it all back I would but I cant so I hope you can believe me when I say it wont ever happen again."

"Do you mean it Joe..honestly no more bullshit"

"I do, please Sierra come home I miss both of you, my life has been shit since you been gone, I need him, I need you."

I stopped and thought for a second to be honest thats all it took was a second to make my mind up I think I just had to hear that from him first.

"See..."

She looked deep in though for a moment and I couldnt tell you what was going on in my head. Finally she looked up at me with that million dollar smile and said what was music to my ears,

"I wanna come home"

I couldnt help it I jumped up baby still in my arms and crushed my lips onto hers,

"You really mean it?"

"Yes Joey I wanna come home."

I just couldnt help it I kept kissing here, nothing in my life next to having Nathan and her saying yes when I proposed has made me this happy. Not the records, not the Grammy's, not the sucess and not even the money. Its this moment right here where I knew no matter what happens we were going to make it, that she was in it like I was. She finally pulled back from my arms and whispered,

"come on lets go to D and Jen Jen."