The Boy in the Band

In a flash

I sat staring at the TV the girl on the TV just confirmed everything Joe had said I should be happy right that I wasn't just a groupie fuck, someone he can get a nut off and bounce. It suddenly rushes back to me in a flash
Freshman Year of High School

"Come on Sierra we gotta get to math before Mr Smith writes us up"
"Shit Kimmy will you chill your always so worried"
"You know what your dad said if you get one more referral he isn't going to let you go with me and my parents to Mytle beach"
"Fuckin fine"

I tossed the cigarette down stopping it out with my sneaker we were up at the wall, the wall was the place all the popular kids and bad asses when to chill and smoke and do whatever when they ditched class. Kimmy normally didn't come up here unless she was with me she didn't exactly fall into the popular or bad ass category. She was always straight laced and always tried to keep me that way. Me on the other hand I was always the wild one, if there was a party I was there I was loud and had a mouth and attitude on me that caused me to have 15 referrals to the office and it was only November. My parents frustrated at best with my behavior. I just felt that life is a party and you only live once so that's what I intended to do. We headed back into the school and the bell just rang,
"Shit See we are going to be in so much trouble"
"You worry to fuckin much"

Just then the school security stopped us
"Girls hall passes"
"Umm we don't have any"
"Why is that"
"We were in the bathroom"
"Both if you"
Kimmy stood next to me fidgeting, I nudged her with my elbow in the hopes she know to calm down.
"Yes we had our periods alright"
"You know Sierra you and Ms Dennis here have had your period every week for the last 2 months go to the office"
"See thanks"
"Shut up Kimmy if you weren't fidgety we could have got away with it".

We walked into the office sitting down to wait for our principal Mr Dentino to see what kind of bullshit we end up getting. I look over to see Paul sitting in the chair across from us. Paul is the guy I've been crushing on since Third grade when his family moved here from Tennessee. He had these amazing blue eyes that just pierced my soul blond curly hair and he was the captain of the lacrosse team. He didn't know I existed he was with Lindsey the captain of the cheerleading squad and the biggest stuck up bitch you'd ever meet. I remember the day I ended up beating her up in the fifth grade for hitting Kimmy. She thought she was so tough picking on Kimmy because she was so much smaller than her what she didn't expect is me to come and knock her out. The smile crosses my face as I remember the day,
"Sierra What you smiling at were in trouble again our parents are going to kill us!"
"Remembering the day I beat Lindsey up for hitting you"
"Only you would you think of that and laugh"
"What"
The door to the principals office opened,
"Miss Rose Miss Dennis back again I See come in sit down."
We walk in and it looking at eachother,
"What brings you in again for the emm is it second time this week?"
We hand him the referral papers,
"In the hall after the bell rang care to explain"
"We were heading to class we were in the bathroom we have our period"
"That was your explanation last week and about three weeks ago"
"It was"
"Miss Rose why don't you let Miss Dennis tell me that"
"She...she is right"
"Uh huh ok ladies looks like you bought yourself a week of in school suspension get your things and head down I will let Mr Strong know your on the way, I will also be calling both of yours parents."
"Shit"
"Miss Rose"
We walked out, and headed to the ISS room. Kimmy was pissed but she went along with it so it was her bad.

We walked in and handed Mr Strong our papers and sat in back, looks like this is were Im spending the week bored to death and trying not to die. We were in there half a hour Kimmy doing her work me well just kinda there when the door opens and in walks Paul he handed Mr Strong his paper before sitting at the desk on the side of me, he looked over at me and smiled. I thought I was going to die right there. I figured if I was stuck in here with nothing to do I mine as well work on some homework one less thing my parents can bitch about. I was working on my science work when I piece of paper lands on my book, I quickly unfold it and read

This shit is so boring

I look over to see it was from Paul

I know right.

We passed notes back and forth for a while till I get one that read
"Party at Masons house tonight you in?"
Did he just invite me to the party? I was already going anyways but Paul like the Paul I've crushes on forever just asked me.

"Yea I'm going"
"Awesome meet you there at 10"
"Totally"

The bell rang a short time later and everyone headed home. Of course I got the normal lecture from my dad and grounding. I told my parents that I was going to bed early that night, my dad worked the night shift at the police department and my mom goes to bed early so I knew it was going to be easy to sneak out and go to Masons party. I got ready after I knew my mom was in her room for the night and went out my window. I walked into Masons a short time later, the house was packed with all the popular kids from school and a bunch of people I never seen before. I quickly found Angie and Renee and we began to talk. Someone handed me a beer I don't remember who though. I was having fun dancing and I was on my third beer when I felt a hand on my shoulder, I turned around quick to see Paul standing there with some of his lacrosse team mates
"You came"
"Told you I would"
"I thought you be here with Lindsey"
"She thinks she is too good for these parties"

He leaned over and whispered something to the guys he was with and they smiled and walked away. I didn't think too much of it because I was already drunk.

"What you say we go somewhere more quite so we can talk and hang out"
"Ok"
I felt him grab my hand and lead me out the back  to a quite area in the backyard by the pool we're all the lounge chairs were set out. He reached into his pocket pulling something out before sitting next to me on the chair.
"So Sierra I've seen you around a lot lately"
"Yea"
"Did I ever tell you how pretty you are"
He put the blunt into his lips lighting it taking a long hit off it before extending it towards me.
"Take a hit"
I don't know"
"Come on Sierra"
"Fine"
I took it from him hitting it and I began to choke. We talked and passed the blunt back and forth, at that point I was really fucked up. He moved in closer wrapping his arms around me. I thought this would be the best thing ever but it made me instantly uncomfortable and my body goes rigid.
"Relax baby what's wrong"
He leans in and his lips press forcefully onto mine before I'm able to pull back.
"Paul what are you doing"
"Relax baby just wanna have some fun"
"Well I think I'm gonna go"
I go to stand up and he pulls me back down. I'm now scared to death and no one knows I'm here.
He pushed me back again the chair and leans into me so I can't move. He slams his mouth onto mine as I struggle to move tears in my eyes. He was too strong for me to get him off of me. His hand is up my shirt. I keep struggling but it seems like no use.
"Calm down baby I just wanna have some fun you know you want me you wanted me since we were kids."
"No I don't get off of me, I wanna go"
"Your not going anywhere".

I struggled for a few more moments till I suddenly felt him getting pulled off me.
"Sierra you ok"
I look up tears in my eyes it was Mason. A couple of the football players I were friends with dragging him off.
"Mason"
"Sierra you ok"
"I...."

I just ran out the back and straight home climbing back into my window. I cried through the night scared to death and have no Idea to even know what to do. My mother woke me up in the morning for school. I told her I was sick so I could stay home not wanting to go to school and face what happened or face Paul.