The Boy in the Band

The Aftermath

I sat silently the entire way back to the hotel I dont think the shock of what I just did has fully hit. The entire drive back Joe held my hand in his rubbing it with his thumb, nothing was said I honestly dont think he knew what to say or do. We arrived back to the hotel and headed back up to our suite and thats when I broke, The gravity of what I just did hit. I walked away from my parents the people who brought me into this world, raised me, dealt with the horrible stuff I did as a teenager for a guy. I always swore I'd never do that turn my back on someone I love but thats exactly what I did, but I did it for someone I loved honestly with ever fiber in me. Joe walked out from the bathroom to see the tears streaming from my eyes,

"See See baby"

"Joe"

"See baby dont cry"

"dont cry how am I not supposed to cry I just lost my parents."

"They will come around"

"No he wont once he sets his mind to something there is no changing"

"never say never"

"Joe I know my father, when he said he was  done with me he is. He did this to my Uncle Jeff and they havent spoke in ten years"

"yeah but your his daughter its different"

"no that doesnt matter to him. I walked away and now I have to live with the fact I have no parents. Our child will grow up not having their grandparents in their life because of my decision."

"Its your parents loss if they chose this, their loss on you and missing out on their granddaughter or grandson's life, and the baby will still have one set of grandparents who will love them unconditionally. My parents adore you too you know that right. If we would run out and got married tommorow my parents would be estatic."

"I adore your parents too but these are my parents what am I supposed to do without them I really have no one."

"You have me See See always"

"I know Joe thank you, I just dont know how Im supposed to, I was always daddy's girl"

"I know and I know it isnt going to be easy for you, but Im here I promise See See."

"I know"

"I love you you know that right"

"I love you too Joey."

"why dont you go in run a bubble bath, Ill order some room service and we can stay in and cuddle you can cry whatever you need to do."

"Thank you Id like that"

I headed into the bathroom and began to run the water well Joe was out ordering food and unaware to me flowers. I slid in and leaned back hoping the hot water would relax my aching body from this pregnancy and stressed out mind and broken heart. I cant believe I had walked away from my dad but at the same point he put me in the postition. I tried to put it out of mind, I still had Joe right. 

I slid out the bath a half a hour later wrapping the hotel bathroom around me and headed out. Room service was already there and Joe already set up the table. 

"So SeeSee feel any better"

"Compared too what, I lost my parents"

"but you still have me and Jenny and D, my family and our lil one so your not alone"

"I know its just"

suddenly there was a knock at the door, Joe and I looked up at eachother