No Good For You

thirty

Sada
February 27th

I slide off of my bed and flick my light on. I squint my eyes at the bright light and look around my room. I look at the clock on my dresser seeing it's 2:37 and I haven't eaten anything since I went to school this morning.

I look in my mirror at my clothes that were wrinkled. A soft knock sounds on my door before it opens slowly. Five heads pop into my door and they all smile.

"You're out of bed." Maddy says proudly as she pushes the door open.

"And the light is on." Tori says coming to me to pinch my cheeks. I giggle and swat her hand away.

"Whatcha doing?" Kevin asks and I shrug.

"I was going to try to clean my room." They all gasp dramatically and I roll my eyes.

"Do y'all want to maybe help me clean?" I ask biting the side of my cheek nervously. "You can say no because I have been a bitch and I did push you out of my room the other day Mad-"

"Of course." Tina waves me off stepping into the room.

"Where do we start?" Nya asks looking around the room. I shrug scratching my head.

"We can start by getting you in the shower." Kevin says scrunching up his face and coming to push me out of the room. I go into the bathroom and shut the door. I frown at my appearance and take my locs down to inspect my scalp.

"Definitely need a wash." I grumble and open my shower door to turn the water on. I take my clothes off and grab my hair stuff from the bottom of the sink. I check the water temperature and flick my hand against the water to speed up the heating process. I don't know if that makes a difference but every time I do it the water seems to heat up instantly.

I get in the shower and step under the shower head to wet my hair. I sigh at the hot water penetrating my scalp instantly relaxing me. It feels so good I could cry. There's honestly nothing like a hot shower when you've spiraled into a depressive episode.

I grab my designated shampoo and squirt some into my hand. I rub my hands together allowing it to foam a little and gently rub it into my scalp. I make sure to get my entire scalp and squeeze some of the extra shampoo into my locs. After completely cleansing my scalp I decide to wash my body.

"I need to take this out." I mumble slouching down some some I can see my clit piercing. I've been wanting to take it out because I just don't see a point in having it anymore.

I finish washing my body and change the water to a lukewarm so I can rinse the shampoo out of my hair. I grab my towel and dry my body off. I peek my head out of the bathroom door.

"Bring me some clothes please!" I yell out and close the door. I secure the towel around my body and rummage through my cabinet for my hair oil. I loosen the nozzle and start to oil my scalp. The door opens and Maddison puts my clothes on the sink.

"Do you need help?" She asks motioning to my scalp.

"Um. Yeah can you just get the back?" She nods and I hand her the bottle. I tilt my head down a little and she oils the last few sections of my scalp. "Are you going to retwist them?"

"No. That'll take too long." I massage my scalp and she gets the back of my head making me laugh.

"Okay, I'll leave you to get dressed." She leaves the bathroom and closes the door behind her. I start to moisturize my body but stop looking at the shirt she brought me. I pick it up and frown realizing it's the shirt I stole from Billie the first night I stayed over.