No Good For You

thirty nine

Sada
May 9th, 2019

"Ms. Anthony?" I jump from my trance and look at my English teacher.

"Yes ma'am?" I rub my eyes and blink a few times to wake myself up.

"Go for a walk." She motions to the door and I quietly slide out of my chair and exit the classroom.

Last night I couldn't get any sleep. I kept thinking about Ally. I really had a good time with her and I was sad when it ended. I always have a good time with her but that time was different. I felt something, I got butterflies and we both couldn't stop smiling like idiots. I really like her, but I don't want to move too fast.

I mean, moving fast is what fucked up me and Billie's relationship. I wish we would've taken our time but then I wouldn't have met Ally. Maybe, I had to meet Billie to meet Ally. That would be very messed up for the universe to give me two amazing girls back to back but I won't complain.

I just hope we take it as slow as we need to, but not too slow to where someone else can slip in. The last thing I need is more confusion in my love life.

I walked aimlessly down the hall in an attempt to wake myself up and make a beeline for the bathroom when I felt my bladder surprisingly start to swell.

"'Scuse me." I say politely to a nicely smelling girl as I pass by her while she's at the sink. "You smell nice." I quickly compliment and close the stall door. I pull my pants down and hover over the toilet to relieve my bladder.

I grab the exposed toilet paper and throw that into the toilet and grab untouched toilet paper to wipe myself. You never know what could be on that exposed tissue.

I pull my pants up, flush the toilet and leave the stall. I quickly go to the sink and start washing my hands. I make eye contact with the nice smelling girl through the mirror and give her a polite smile.

I continue washing my hands silently and go to the paper towel dispenser to get a few pieces. I feel eyes on me and glance over seeing the girl still staring.

I clear my throat, awkwardly. "Can I help you with something?" Before I could process it she pins me against the sink and crashes her lips into mine. For a split second I melt into it but I quickly come to my senses and push her off.

"What's wrong?" She asks breathlessly and I scrunch my face up.

"Do I fucking know you?" I ask with my voice slightly raised.

"Yeah, I'm Dina." She blushes, biting onto her bottom lip.

"Again, do I know you?" I ask as I adjust my clothes. She rolls her eyes and steps closer to me but I put my hands up. She smacks her teeth as if I'm the one bothering her.

"I'm on the cheerleading squad. I have a butterfly tattoo on m-"

"Oh! Hi?" I vaguely remember her but I do remember the tattoo and the yeasty she gave me.

"I knew you'd remember." She eyes me up and down before stepping closer again but I step to the side.

"I'm in a relationship, so let's not do that anymore. Okay?" I lie, still holding my hands up to block any sudden movements.

"Okay, sorry?" She says with clear embarrassment written on her face making her cheeks turn a slight shade of pink.

"It's okay." I take a deep breath and nod before slowly leaving the bathroom. "You do smell really good-" I cut myself off and wave nervously. She waves back and I quickly leave the bathroom. "What the fuck." I whisper and speed walk back to my classroom before I run into someone else.