No Good For You

fourty five

Sada
June 10th, 2019

I'd been driving around trying to find plan b pills in almost every store and somehow all the dumb bitches wanted to have sex without a condom and took them. I walk into the Walgreens and go straight to the aisle with the pregnancy tests and plan b pills.

"Thank the heavens." I snatch the last one off the shelf and do a happy dance. "Fetus deletus." I joke as I stroll to the counter. I slide the box to the girl and she gives me a knowing look.

"Was there anymore?" She whispers and I shake my head no.

"I took the last one."

"Damnit. Alright, $49.99." I insert my card into the card reader and type in my code. I thank her for the receipt and quickly walk to my car.

I unlock my car doors and toss my bags in the passenger seat. "I should've got water so I could take this." I sit and think about going back inside but I don't feel like getting back out so I decide to quickly pull off so I can get home.

I had to come into work the next morning and luckily Roland wasn't there. He closes tonight, I don't need anymore mishaps. "Speaking of the devil." I grumble, answering his phone call.

"Aye, how much you think this sex tape worth?" He questions with humor in his voice.

"You were filming us?" I ask loudly as I reverse out of the Walgreens parking lot.

"No but we forgot there was cameras in here and I'm trying to delete the footage of us before Natalie has our head on a stick."

"You'll have to go to the settings and it should say something about taping over it or deleting it. Your safest option would be to delete it." I suggest and I hear clicking of the mouse of the other end.

"It's gone. You think she'll notice a bit of it's missing?"

"No, she doesn't watch the tapes over that often." I tell him as I make a left turn.

"Cool. See you later."

"Alright." I hang up and jump out of my skin at how loud my music is. "Jesus." I adjust the volume and change the song. It was still early in the day and I for sure was planning on taking a long ass nap after popping this pill. I had to be up pretty early after having a terrible nights rest.

I kept running the thought of me getting pregnant in my mind. I could barely function today at work because I hadn't gotten the plan b yet. It's 95% effective when you take it the first 24 hours but up to 72 hours it's only 89%.

However, my mood has been boosted now that I have the plan b. All I need to do is make sure I take it. I still feel like complete shit for fucking that man in the store and I was sure to light some sage to clear the energy. I'm sure we already tainted the energy forever but at least I helped get some of it out.

Obviously I didn't plan to have sex with Roland and I wish I didn't let it get that far but that was a mistake. I'd probably do it again and that's what's freaking me out. I actually liked it, I actually like him and I don't know what to do about it.

I pull up to my house and grab my bags from the backseat. I quickly walk in the house to go to the kitchen but freeze my movements when I see Maddy talking to my mom.  I bypass them and go to my room. I toss my bags beside my bed and roll my eyes when Maddy stands in my doorway.

"I didn't know you'd be there." She starts and I hold up my hand to cut her off.

"But you know about what he did to me." I take my jewelry off and set them on the dresser.

"He said they had been broken up Sada, you're just blowing it out of proportion like always." She mumbles rudely making me scoff.

"Didn't mama and daddy teach you to never believe everything a man says." I ask as I take off my sandals.