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💙VIXX ⚠️ What About Me?⚠️

Person:N
Plot: Leo is healing after his depression. The other are so focused not noticing N slowly falling deep into depression. With non of the members caring, thinking he only wants attention and to put hate on Leo, and his abusive dad as the manager he slowly starts giving up on everything.
Warnings:mention of abuse and self harm.
N just gives me ideas :<
And I know they are officially serving in the military but here they are already done.
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N's pov

Leo is healing. It has been 3 months since both Leo and I came back from our military service. I was always there during our service and he thanked me for it at first. But it changed. He would push me away and instead go Skype with the other members. I started questioning myself. What am I to them? Am I important?

The others where aloud to give a short visit but it felt like they only came for Leo,and not for me. Hyuk would stare at me like I was a complete stranger but with my honest heart I could see fear and care. I though by myself, is it because my hair is almost literally gone? So I started using pills and slowly my hair returned to normal, Faster then it was supposed to but it botherd no one.

When my last day was there I packed my stuff and checked my phone. I did hear from Ravi that we got a new manager. A few photos where sent in the groups chat but I didn't bother to look at the time. But when I did, I almost felt my heart stop. My father was the new manager! I don't have a great bond with my dad, not at all. He is the reason I'm sort of half humanoid. My father did experiments on me, his only son. Because of his experience I would glich which would change my hair colour and stype, my clothing and weirdly enough my eye colour.

When my mother found out she was flaming. She asked me about it and I told her everything. She was a bit angry at me for not telling her that it had been going since I was 6 and I was 17 then,so 11 years. I loved my mom so much. To badly she passed away a year before I enter listed.

But I was so scared to go back to the dorm, did my dad know I was the leader of Vixx? I still remember when I, not with Leo since Leo would come back a week later, stepped into the dorm and all they did was look up in shock. "I thought you would come back tomorrow." I only shook my head and placed down my bag. At that moment he entered the room, eyes immediately falling on me.

"N, this is the new manager. Manager-" "hi dad." I just blankly replied. "oh, so he's your dad. Then you must have a good bond with him."

let's stop here for a sec. I never told anyone els but my mom about what happened with my dad just because I would be reminded of little me, stuck against a wall, used for testing and that's kind of stuff. I always get and got nightmares about it so that's why I never told them, not that they would belive it if I did tell them.

But well it wasn't that bad,yet. He would sometimes scream at me but that was all. After a week Leo returned. And to be honest, I was hurt. They had made a surprise party for Leo's come back and they didn't do anything for me. I was about to burst into tears but I just didn't want to seem weak. When Leo entered and saw it he smiled and huged the others, but he only looked at me. They sometimes really acted like I was deadly sick and could spread it out to them if the huged me.

But now to the point where I am now.
From the starts of today we where dared for a show we would go to next month together with A.C.E. The dare was to have a life stream cam for the full month, and it had to always be on, and play little games everyday and who would lose wasn't aloud to eat for the rest of the day. And there can only be one loser. And a game with teamwork. It sounds easy so I'll try my best.

The first day starts and before breakfast we have to do the game to decide who is not aloud to eat for today. I don't want any of the members to lose so I decide I'll make sure i lose.