The Darker You || BNHA X Lycan Reader (Discontinued)

Chapter 25: The boarder between life and death

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THERE WAS A CRUCIAL
Silence, between the nurse and I; as We waltzed through a Long winding hallway. The lights flickered, each time I passed them; I found this quite odd.

At the bare cost Of, My God-forsaken humanity; I returned to the mortal world.

each light Would flicker As I passed by room after room. Maybe it was something to do with the weather? Or there were electrical Issues Going about this specific hospital?

The fact that I didn't really feel the need to breath, or gasp for air in any way...it spooked me.
I feel as though the Nurse had somehow noticed, So I faked deep ragged breathes flashing an anxious smile. "Few, rising from the dead Really knocks the breath out of you..." She Remains silent.
My ears fall back sorrowfully as I Let my Gaze drop to the Ground.

She lead me to a room, multiple Doctors Wearing masks Crowded the area. One in particular gave me a look of Pity.

With every fiber of my being,
My instincts Told me to Sink my Jaws into each and every one of them.

Grotesque images flash before my eyes, I had to shake my head to pull myself back to reality.
"(L/n), (f/n), you're the UA student from earlier today, am I correct?" I nod profusely, holding the tarp against my chest anxiously.

"Are you aware That-"
"Everyone just thought I was dead? Yeah, I think The nurse lady Sort of cleared that up a moment ago-"
He narrows his eyes, "Tell me, are you feeling any different than before? You're breathing regularly, your Body Is Running Right?" I didn't want to lie, but something told me They wouldn't let me leave this place if I said otherwise.

"Nope, everything feels normal. I'm perfectly fine. Completely alive. No problems at all..." I Smiled anxiously. If Kenai were here he'd surely smack me in the back of the head. I sucked at lying, but they seemed to Believe me so. I didn't really question anything else.

They did tests, checked up on my Reproductive system. I had to Fake breathing for so long eventually I Felt like I was Hurting myself, even though It wasn't actually physical pain. It was more like, I thought it would hurt so; my brain tricked me into believing it actually did.

When they finished, I was sure they were Skeptical. But I didn't let myself question that, I just asked If I could call my dad- or who I refferred to as my father, and they Gave me the phone.

I was surprised at the device. It had been so long since I tampered with something like that, I'd play with Mirio's phone alot but I never actually understood how to use it. There seemed to be only one game on his phone, I called it Guess The combination of Numbers On the screen.

I would try to unlock it but, eventually it would flash Weird words that I didn't understand. When I Told mirio he was adgitated. Something about Not being able to get Into his phone for twenty four hours because I made the Phone Lock mad?? That's probably not the case, and my Memories Of life before this incident today are Growing fuzzier and fuzzier by the second.

I looked at the device, hitting random numbers. It started making weird noises, and it scared me. I hid under the cott. It was now vibrating, I assumed it was going to self destruct or, shoot lasers at me.

The Doctor sighs, and Asks a few nurses to scrape together my records, and they contacted him for me. When I pressed the phone against my Cheek I was startled by his solemn voice, "s-sensei?? U-Uh are you like inside this thing or-?-" The Doctor Gave me an adgitated look, muttering something about, "-the one millennial in this world who doesn't understand the concept of technology-"

Then he takes the phone, and sits at his desk Jotting down information on a piece of paper.
He told him the situation. I could hear his voice In the phone. I Couldn't understand how I could hear his voice, but he wasn't actually inside the Phone.

But my Tail Thumped against the seat, and I could feel my ears Twitching At the sound of his voice.

The last words I said to him were wrong, but they weren't my words. Those words belonged, to the darker me. Not me, me. So surely he'd understand right??

You musn't tell this human about me. He wouldn't understand.

But....he's like...my dad...I have to tell him.

Telling this Human will result In your demise.

Whaaa???! You're the reason I said those things-

And I will be the one to...apolagise for those things.
So long, as you keep my existence Silent.

I sigh. But my Tail Doesn't stop thumping. I shake the sorrowful thoughts from my mind, flashing the doctor a hopeful look. "That Was him right?! Is he Coming?!"

He rolls his eyes, "why wouldn't he be, he's your Guardian-" i couldn't stop myself, From Leaping with excitement.

I Couldn't really describe why I Felt so excited to see him, maybe it was Instinct. Whether I'm the ruler of the underworld, Or an alpha like my mother; He will be my Alpha. The alpha of my Pack.
I look up to him, He saved me, made me feel like I was A normal human even though I really wasn't.

Eventually though, the anticipation of waiting For him to Come get me, gnaws at my Brain. What if He was mad at me?

What if He doesn't like me anymore?

What if He doesn't want me in his Life anymore??

What if He doesn't see me As his daughter anymore?

What if my venomous words have landed me Back in the streets again?

What if I'm going to be alone again??

Stuck on this world For what feels like An eternity, After giving up my human side just to return to this place....

The only reason I chose to return was to Defend the life that I've created for myself....

And now my humanity is gone.

I don't have purpose anymore...

Will he....

Will he still love me??