The Darker You || BNHA X Lycan Reader (Discontinued)

chapter 40: The Conjoined Secrets Of The higher Order

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SINCE MY RETURN, THE FIRST
place on the agenda was UA high. That's where I confronted sensei. I know I should've been thankful he'd sent anyone to come get me, but I was really disappointed.

It made me feel like he was embarrassed of Being seen out in public with me. I wouldn't be surprised, I made a mockery of UA high since the sports festival.

Katsuki walked me all the way to the office in which I told him he didn't exactly have to do, but of course He did it anyway.

I think he was just guilty about snapping at me Before I healed him. His Face was red the rest of the walk, but I still got that scratch behind the ears.

I deserved it, I'd been through alot lately.

I tried to keep my head up. But my internship was honestly traumatizing. Alot had happened to me. It took me a while to let myself realise, none of this would've really happened had i not trusted him in the first place.

But he was...he was my father now.
And I accepted his errors, just as he's accepted mine.

Honestly I don't think he knows all that actually happened to me during this internship.

I've came to probably one of the most strangest realizations though.

I feel like some how Katsuki, makes me vulnerable.

My heart sometimes flutters when I'm around him, and he makes me feel....almost human again.
Throughout sensei's meeting, I lost myself in my brain, just thinking about all the logical explanations there could be.

But the truth was,
He made me vulnerable.

Which meant that if I'm going to kill myself; either this collar I'm wearing could be the key, or I'd have to kill myself around him.

But would I rather break his heart, than let his future slip away right before me?

My father's rein could cost my friend's future; their dreams.

"Miss (l/n), might you have any word to contribute to this discussion?" Principal nezu draws me from my thoughts.

"Huh? Oh...I um..." I stammered anxiously, "What uhh...what was the question?"

Kenai pulls a fur from my ear. I hiss, "Hey! Not cool! Jeez- I mean sorry sir, could you please repeat that??" Kenai sinks back into my bag crossing His arms. "How do you feel about group therapy? To help with The trauma that seems to be irking at your nightmares." He smiles brightly.

I offer a warm smile in response, sighing. "I don't...I don't mind i guess..."

They didn't really wanna help me.

They just wanted to keep me from 'exploding'.

Somehow sensei seemed to have noticed my mood change. But he doesn't react. I smile at him, trying to Rest his worries- but it doesn't really work.

The walk home was really silent.
My thoughts were racing. Eating away at me.

What those men did to me back in that room was wrong. But I was too scared to say anything about it, I was scared that Maybe sensei would think I was...disgusting...