Momentary Bliss

3rd

Our first day at work was fine except for what the other girl said. Hindi ko padin matanggal sa isipan ko ang mga sinabi niya, alam kong hindi iyon gaano kasakit pagdating sa ibang tao pero pinagsisisihan ko na naging senstitibo ako. Might be the start of the downfall ever since I decided to become happy, huh?

Nakarating kami sa condo namin ng past 6. Dumiretso agad ako sa kwarto ko at nagkulong, I know this shouldn't be what I'm doing right now kasi mas hindi ako makakatrabaho ng maayos. I was crying as if I don't know what to do next. Ayaw ko na may masamang nangyayari saakin tuwing nagiging masaya ako. It makes me feel like I shouldn't be feeling happy anymore or worse, I don't deserve being happy.

"Viv? Buksan mo yung pinto, stop crying. We still have work tomorrow." sabi ni Leah habang dire-diretsong kumakatok sa pinto ng kwarto ko.

Binuksan ko nalang kahit labag sa kalooban ko na makita niya akong hindi pa nakabihis at maga ang bata after all the tears I shed.

"Do you want to talk about it?" she made her way beside me as she asks that.

"Every time I'm happy, does it always require to have something unpleasant happening afterwards?" I asked as I continue to sob from crying.

"I don't know, Viv. Pero kaya mo naman siguro na hayaan at wag nalang pansinin yung mga nangyayaring masama sayo, right?" She said while trying to calm me down by caressing my back.

"Hindi ko alam Leah. For how many years have I been struggling? I feel like I don't even deserve being happy. I also feel like loving a person is of no use anymore. I'll be left alone all over again." My voice got louder at each statement and shock was evident in Leah's face.

"Viv, hindi naman sa lahat ng masasayang experience mo may mangyayari. And you also should take note that not all those you love will leave you. Andito ako." she gave me reassuring smile of hers which actually made me calm down a little.

I ended up not eating dinner, I had no energy to do so and I lost my appetite already.

I woke up a bit later than Leah. Naliligo palang ako she already cooked our food and nakabihis na siya. After a while we finished our food and we were ready to go when someone texted me

Unknown Number:

Hi, Miss Vivianne! Would you mind going to my office when you arrive at work? I have something to tell you.

I replied saying:

Who is this?

Unknown Number:

Oh sorry, I didn't introduce myself. I'm Tristan, I hope you remember me.

I was in shocked knowing na si Sir Tristan pala yun, I smiled imagining his face again, oh well, can't deny the fact that he really is handsome.

I replied:

Sir! I'll go there once I arrive at work. Thank you po!

So, we arrived at TRF company 5 minutes before nine so I decided to put my things down on the table before finally deciding to go to Sir Tristan's office. Since hindi ko alam kung saan, I asked some people around and luckily they were kind and showed me the way. Nung nakita ko na kung saan my heart started beating fast. Pagkabukas ko ng pinto Sir Tristan looked at me as if I was the only one he was waiting for. Was I late?

"Good morning, Miss Vivianne. Please take a seat." He said and I immediately nodded.

"Good morning po," I tried to smile to at least hide the nervousness away and I think it worked just fine.

"I heard about what happened yesterday." He stated.

Ah, yesterday. Just when I thought I'll be forgetting all about it, he goes and opens up the topic again. Not that I'm mad but how am I suppose to easily forget now? I looked down, not wanting to say anything more about what has happened yesterday. Too depressing to even think about it.