The next day, me and Leah went to the company earlier than usual kaya nakapag drive thru pa kami. She kept asking me about my checkup yesterday. She really is worried.
"Dapat kasi hindi na namomorblema!" She said while driving.
"Hindi naman ah." I said and took a sip from my ice coffee.
"If you have problems kasi magsabi ka!" She said and turned the car.
"Opo ma'am." I said and chuckled.
Nakarating din kami sa company moments after our talk. I saw Riley sitting on his spot as usual.
"Morning!" Riley greeted.
"Good morning!" Leah and I greeted.
Lumapit ako sakanya after ko ibaba gamit ko.
"Ate Kath was here a couple days, right?" I asked and gave him a meaningful smile.
He laughed and said, "Well, yeah. Ba't ka ba kasi absent? Pati si Sir Tristan absent din." He complained.
"Sorry na! May kinailangan lang gawin." I said and chuckled.
We kept on talking about him and Ate Kath. There are some really big developments between their relationship. I mean, they like each other pero hindi pa sila. They get lunch and dinner sometimes pero Riley here can't make the first move. Tsk.
"I almost forgot!" I said and looked at him.
"What?" He asked.
"Did you know that you're my cousin?" I said excitedly.
"Really? How?" He asked at halatang nagulat.
"Kinausap ko si Mom and Dad about ny co-workers, they told me na cousin daw kita!" I said and chuckled.
"Thats good news! Sa laki siguro ng pamilya hindi na natin nalaman yun." Riley laughed.
"Thats true!" I said and laughed with him.
Habang nakikipagtawanan ako ay sakto namang dumating si Tan.
He looked at us pag pasok niya. His face was surprised and suddenly became something that resembles jealousy. Nagpatuloy siyang pumasok sa office niya na medyo patabog. Didn't I tell him that this boy right here is my cousin? Dang it!
Napansin din ng iba ang pagka 'attitude' ng boss nila kaya napatingin sila saamin ni Riley.
"May nagselos ata!" I heard one of them say.
"Hala si Sir umagang umaga mainit ang ulo." I heard another one say.
"Kaya nga!" sinecond emotion pa ng isa.
Ano ba naman! Pinsan ko nga toh! Tsk!
"Rile, puntahan ko muna ah. I need to clear things up. Baka madamay ka pa! Good luck kay Ate Kath!" I said and chuckled before going inside Tan's office.
I heard Riley laugh bago at tuluyang makapasok.
"What do you need?" Tan said ng hindi lumilingon saakin.
"Why are you like that?" I asked him.
"Alin?" He asked like an innocent person.
"I explained everything to you!" I said at umupo sa upuan na malapit sakanya.
"I know." Bitin niyang sagot.
Gosh ano ba naman! Aga aga namomorblema tuloy ako.
"Stop being jealous! Riley is my cousin!" I tried to explain.
"Okay." Sabi niya. I can sense something wrong from him.
"Are you angry?" I asked.
Umiling lang siya.
"Hey, baby. Riley is only my cousin. I told you already." I said and calmed him down.
"Oo nga! Sinabi mo na!" He shouted.
Nagulat ako dun. For a second or two hindi ako nakagalaw. Why is he so hot tempered today?
"T-Tan?" I asked as I felt a tear fall from my eye.
"Ano meron sayo ngayon? Its as if I'm cheating on you or something." I added. I tried holding my tears back but I failed. Tears fell from my eyes.
"sorry." He said in a small voice.
"its fine." I said at pinahid na ang mga luha na tumulo bago lumabas ng office niya.
"Viv? Are you okay?" Leah asked pagka upo ko.
"Yes." I said and proceeded on doing my work.
"Nag-away kayo noh?" Leah asked at tumabi saakin.
"Ang liit na problema, Leah. He's jealous because of that?" I said and cried.
Leah was just patting my back trying to calm me down.
Few minutes later, I calmed down and told Leah na pwede na siya bumalik sa gawain niya.
I did the same. The moment I thought everything will be alright, didn't go as planned.
Despite crying and feeling a bit pain, natapos ko ng maaga ang trabaho ko. The thing is, I'm not in a mood anymore. I don't talk to others since I'm not in a mood. I told Leah na magpapaalam lang ako sa boss dahil uuwi ako ng maaga. I'll take a taxi too since Leah needs the car to go home.
Pumasok na ako sa office niya at tumayo sa harap.
"I'm going home early." Natatangi kong nasabi.
"Viv, I'm sorry." He said.
"Sir, I'm going home early. All I need now is your permission." I said and looked at him without any emotion.
"Baby, please. I'm sorry." He said at lumapit saakin.
I just looked at him and said, "Sir, I'm done with work now. I want to go home." I said.
"You're not going home unless you forgive me." He said and hugged me.
Bumitiw ako sa pagkakayakap niya. Nakita ko na nagulat siya dun pero hindi ko iyon pinansin.
"I want to go home and rest." I said.
"Kahit ayaw niyo ako payagan ay uuwi ako." I said at tumalikod na.
He held my wrist to stop me.
"Vivianne." He said.
Binawi ko ang kamay ko.
"If you can't understand a simple explanation, I don't know what else I can do. Ako na mismo nagexplain, Tristan. What the hell do you want me to do? Ang liit na bagay pinapalaki pa." I shouted.
I felt him stiffened from what I said.
"Hindi tama na sinisigawan mo yung tao na walang intensyon gawin yang nasa isip mo." I shouted again.
I felt tears fall from both of my eyes. Shit. Nasigawan ko siya.
"I'm sorry." I said at tumakbo na palabas ng office niya at palabas ng company.
Nagpara na ako ng taxi so I can go home and take a rest. I can't let myself stay in that office knowing that someone couldn't understand me.
Pauwi ako ay iyak ako ng iyak. Ayaw ko na mag-away kami dahil sa maliit na bagay. Shit.
Nakarating ako sa condo at dire diretsong pumasok sa kwarto ko. Tinawag ako ni Micah pero di ko pinansin iyon.
Humiga ako habang umiiyak.
Ako ata ang naging antagonist sa away na ito. Ako yung hindi nakinig sakanya. Hindi ko siya binigyan ng oras para magexplain. Ang tanga!
Paano na toh? Unang away namin and I already know that I'm the bad one. Shit.
Habang umiiyak ako ay may tumawag saakin. It was Tan.
Hindi ko sinagot iyon. Natatakot ako at hindi ko alam kung bakit. I'm at fault right now.
Leah called me minutes after. Sinagot ko iyon. Nagulat ako nang marinig ang boses ni Tristan sa kabilang linya.
"Vivianne, baby. I'm really sorry." He said.
I didn't bother to talk pero rinig na rinig ang paghikbi ko.
"I understand your relationship with Riley now. Sadyang marami lang talaga akong iniisip ngayon." He said with a worried tone.
Thats were I know I'm at fault. Hindi ko siya binigyan ng oras para makapag exaplain. Hindi ko pinakinggan ang side niya. I didn't even asked him how he was this morning. Ang tanga ko. Nagpapakain ako sa pride ko not knowing that the other person is doing his all to clear things up.
"I'm sorry. I'm at fault now. Hindi ko pinakinggan ang side mo. Nagpakain ako sa pride ko." I said na medyo maiyak iyak pa.
"Please tell me we're fine now." He said.
"We are. Sorry talaga. I shouldn't have let my pride control me." I said at pinahid na ang luha sa mukha.
"I'll go there after work. I'm really sorry. I'll make it up to you. I can't afford losing you, Vivianne. I love you, baby." He said and let out a deep sigh.
"I love you too." I said and ended the call.
Mas maganda pala kapag naayos agad yung isang away kaysa sa pinapatagal pa. It's much more better when we eat our pride instead of being eaten by it. Doing that could make changes instead of damages.
Our relationship is not as perfect as others, I can say. But one thing is for sure, I won't let our relationship be a toxic one. I will do everything to always end our fights in a good way instead of deciding to end our fight with a one sided decision.
Listening to the other's explanation would be better than not just believing your own reason. Letting the other one speak before you storm out would always be better.
I learned that in a relationship, getting rid of your own pride could lead you to somewhere better than before. Being one-sided when it comes to arguments will just lead you to nowhere.
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