Écarté (Lost Birds Book 4)

Part 20 Cam's Story.

Cam kept me tucked tightly into his arms and we both listened to the sounds of a car starting and driving away.

"So..." Cam said twisting thoughtfully at one of my braids.

"Hmm?" I asked not even trying to sit back up or pull away.

"Did you and Aydan have sex?" He asked bluntly.

"What? No!" I gasped shoving off of him and shaking my head in surprise.

"I'm just asking!" Cam laughed holding his hands up defensively. "Aydan said you guys did some stuff and now you're experiencing a Drop. He didn't want to leave because he didn't think that you were ready to be alone yet. I had to remind him like a billion times that I know what drop is and that I could be just as helpful as he could."

"What's a drop?" I asked rubbing at my forehead.

"He didn't tell you?" Cam asked sitting up.

"Aydan? No. Uhm... I kind of asked if we could just cuddle for a while before we talked anymore." I said flushing.

"Oh..." Cam said glancing back toward the window. "That explains why he was so uncomfortable with leaving."

"Why?" I asked.

"Because he feels like you're after cares incomplete." Cam nodded.

"My what?" I asked shaking my head. I was starting get frustrated with all of his ridiculous terms.

"Ok hold on... So... you did stuff with Aydan this morning right?" Cam said.

I nodded.

"And that stuff wasn't what we'd call normal everyday playing around stuff. It was probably pretty intense, yes?" Cam said.

I nodded again.

"So after something like that it's pretty common practice to take part in something called after care which basically entails doing everything you can to make sure your partner is ok and that they are ok with what happened. If you and Aydan haven't talked about what happened then he's probably freaking out a little and super worried that something might be wrong or went wrong with what you guys did." Cam said.

"I thought he was just worried because I cried." I admitted glancing out the window as well. I didn't want Aydan to have to worry about me, us, all day. I should have let him talk when he tried.

"You cried?!" Cam asked shocked. "Did he hurt you?!"

"No. No... Nothing like that. I don't know I just... Everything was fine and then he asked if I was ok and... and I wasn't... I'm not..." I admitted. My eyes burned again at the acknowledgement of how awful I felt.

"Oh, honey come here." Cam said a pulled me back on to his lap.

"I don't know why I'm so sad. Everything about yesterday... just everything is making me so sad." I sighed in frustration.

"It's not just that sweet girl. I think Aydan's right you're experiencing a drop and that's making everything feel a lot worse than it usually would." Cam said.

"... Cam..." I whined at his random term usage again.

"Yup. On it. So... Drop is the word they use to sum up that you're having a feel good crash." Cam said.

"What?" I asked even more confused.

"Ok so you know how when you were doing stuff and things started to get intense and all of these emotions and feelings were way up here." He used one of his hands and held it above his head.