Falling Inevitably

16th Fall

16th Fall

"What the hell are you doing?!"

I immediately freed myself from his hug. I even slapped his chest so he could step back from me. His hug and touch are intoxicating. It is lethal to my being.

I love him, yes, but I will never stoop down to be... the other one. Ayos lang na masaktan ako sa katotohanang nakikita ko. Ayos lang na lumuha ako. Pero hinding hindi ko gagawin na rason iyon para dito. I will never betray my sister even if she's getting on my nerves.

Yet, that is human nature. To get what you want. To get what you love. To be selfish enough. That's just being a human.

His moves are making me confuse. His words and stares. Gusto kong lagyan ng malisya pero alam kong mali. Sobrang mali. Pero habang nakatitig ako sa mga mata niya ay parang gusto kong bumigay. Those eyes that are staring directly to me with affection are making my walls down, it makes me want to give in to the temptation.

His hands went to my right cheek and caress it with tenderness. I can't help but sighed in pleasure just with his touch. Naipikit ko ang mata upang damhin ang hawak niya.

"Amara... please answer me."

Iminulat ko ang aking mga mata. He is pertaining to his question about Tobias. I suddenly smiled bitterly. We can't and I definitely can't.

I now have priorities in life. I have to be strong like I always do for the past years. I can't be soften with this simple encounter of ours.

"That's actually none of your business." I said with a hint of sharpness in my voice.

I gathered myself and walked away from him. I know he was stunned with my answer so I took the chance to escape from him. I walked away years ago and I'm doing the same right now.

I really am a coward.

Pero ayoko na mangyari ulit ang nangyari sa nakaraan. It is enough. I can't give in to temptation instantly just like what I did years ago. I became reckless.

Hanggang ngayon ay nagagalit pa rin ako sa sarili ko. Hindi ko mapatawad ang nagawa ko. I used Tobias just to escape the pain. And I end up getting what I deserved. Karma indeed is a bitch.

"Could you stop following me?!" I scream literally so he could hear me clearly.

Masyadong maingay ang tugtog sa buong club. I was invited here by a blockmate. Nung una ay tumatanggi pa ako pero hindi ko na kinakaya mag isa. I needed to breathe. Being alone makes me want to go home and I know I can't. Not until I graduate in MIA New York.

Lalo akong nairita nung bigla siyang ngumisi. Nakakairita talaga! This jerk Tobias is really a stalker! Akala ko ay matatapos na ang pagkikita namin nung ginamit niya ako para paalisin yung ex niya perp hindi pa pala. Apparently he fell for me daw. What a lie!

"I'm not following you, love. I got invited too." Sabi pa niya kaya lalo akong nanggigil.

Nung tumama ang ilaw sa mukha niya ay ibang tao ang nakita ko. With his blonde hair, he looks like... Shit! Ano itong pumapasok sa isip ko?

Muli kong pinagkatitigan ang mukha niya. Afterwards, I did not think of anything else as I pulled his neck. The influence of alcohol is adding to the fire and I'm about to get burn.

Alam kong ginagawa ko habang hinahalikan ko ang mga labi niya. Tumugon agad siya. His hands started to roam on my body. He can easily access every part of me because I'm wearing a skimpy dress.