My Boy// SnowBaz ✔️

Chapter 11

Tw: talk of sex, swearing,

Simon

I wake up to a good morning text from Baz, and I'm surprised by how happy it makes me.  I roll over holding my phone close to me to respond, is it weird to throw a heart on the end of it? I don't think so...

Me: good morning <3

Baz: able to fall asleep last night after your little snooze beforehand?

Me: shut up I slept fine

Baz: that's good, I didn't :(

Me: :(
Me: why?

Baz: I was thinking bout you ;)

I'm not sure how to respond to that, I'm excited by it, but I know I'm too awkward to handle this with ease. Shit, he knows I've read it, I only have so long to respond before he thinks I've left him on read because I'm upset.

Me: oh?

There, that gives me enough time to figure out what to say next. I want Baz to know I'm okay with this type of stuff, I can tell he's not sure how to treat me. I want him to treat me like anyone else he'd date, but I also don't know what sort of people he dates usually. Maybe I'm super different and that's why he's unsure? Last night I could tell he wanted to kiss me, and I would've appreciated it, but he didn't.

Baz: Simon you do have a way with words

Me: lol shut up

Baz: okay I have to go get ready, I have work soon

Me: don't you work at the club?

Baz: yes, but I also work at a coffee shop.

Me: ohhhh okay that makes sense I was wondering why you were going to a club so early hahah

Baz: okay I'll text you later, see you.

Me: bye

I let out a sigh and put my phone down beside me. I have to get ready for uni, but I need to think. I didn't want to mention it, but when I asked about the club I felt a little weezy thinking about him being there. We aren't really official yet, so I'm not sure if it's even my place to talk to him about it, and I'm not even sure how I genuinely feel about it. I get up and get into the shower, I wash quickly and while I'm drying off, ponder whether or not Baz is thinking about me this morning?

Is that what people like him do? Think about people they find attractive while washing, maybe spend a bit more time in the shower...

"Penny!" I shout pulling my joggers on and walking out into the hall.

"Yeah?" She responds from the kitchen. I leave the towel I was using to dry my hair on one of the chairs at the kitchen table as I sit.

"Can I ask a weird question?" I ask.

"Yeah, What?" She asks sitting down across from me biting into a piece of toast.

"When you start seeing someone, how quickly do you develop... like not romantic feelings for them?" I ask trying to avoid the word sex.

"Like when do I lose interest?" She looks confused, and then even more confused when I shake my head.

"No, like when do you develop the other sort of attraction towards someone" I hate how awkward I am, I need to work on that.

"Do you mean sexually?" she laughs, shaking her head slightly.

"Yeah" I sigh, getting up to get a cup of coffee.

"Well, that's usually what starts it off. At least for me" she shrugs.

"Really?" I'm still confused.

"Yeah, like I start talking to them 'cause I think they're hot, then we talk and I see if there's a connection" she explains, raising an eyebrow as I sit down without putting any sugar in my coffee. "Hm, why are you worrying about it?" She asks.

"It's stupid it doesn't matter" I know my face is turning red.

"Come on Simon, I've heard you say some pretty stupid stuff, but I'm still your friend, and I'm still here to listen" she's way too good at convincing me.

"Fine, I was wondering if Baz was thinking about me, you know, like that. And I'm not sure how I do feel, or how I should feel about it, you know? Am I supposed to feel the same? Penny, I think I'm just weird and that I'm going to let Baz down and I don't know how to avoid that" I was right it is stupid.

"Simon, it's okay if you don't experience a relationship the same way others do. Baz is an adult, he can make the decision to see you or not, no one is forcing him to. He is seeing you because he wants to, he gave you his number okay? You're just overthinking it" she smile, getting up to put her dish away. She pauses by the exit of the kitchen.

"Are you feeling any better?" She asks.

"Yes thank you," I tell her honestly.

"Okay that's good, have a good day Simon" she smiles and leaves to finish getting ready for uni.

My phone pings and I check it.

Baz: idk how late you want to stay up tonight, but I already miss you, so if you want to come by my place tonight after I'm done work, we could watch a movie again?

I think about it, is it really worth wreaking my sleep schedule for this man that I've just met. But if I'm real with myself, I don't usually go to bed until 2 am anyway. What's the harm in doing the same thing I normally do at someone else's flat.

Me: okay see you tonight.

I smile and shut off my phone.