My Boy// SnowBaz ✔️

Chapter 26

Baz

I can't remember ever being this nervous. I clutch at the flowers in my hand as I wait for Simon to open the door. I realize that I'm probably going to break them if I don't let up soon, so I force myself to loosen my grip on my pathetically predictable peace offering. The door opens and my throat goes dry, every word I had rehearsed dies on my tongue.

"Hey" he greets me, and I'm surprised to hear how pleasant his tone is. I don't know if I was expecting anger or sorrow, but he doesn't have either of those laced in his sugar sweet voice.

"Hi, Simon I'm-"I try to start the apology that I've been running through my head over and over.

"Baz, slow done. Let's go find somewhere nice to talk" he takes the bouquet out of my hands before I even offer it to him, and I can feel my face heating up as I realize how much of a fool I'm making of myself.

"Yeah okay," I nod and follow Simon down his street towards a park. He keeps looking me up and down out of the corner of his eyes, and I don't know why, but he looks puzzled.

Simon

I planned on being a bit colder to Baz, but oh my goodness he's a mess. I almost feel bad for him. His hair is slicked back like usual, but that's the only usual thing about him. His eyes have dark circles under them, and he's stumbling over almost every word.

We find a place to sit under a tree, and I have to remind myself to not lead this conversation. This is up to Baz to talk and fix. I'm going to make sure he knows how he hurt me, but that my only obligation to this exchange.

Baz

We're sitting against a tree, and I close my eyes and let out a breath, before forcing myself to start talking. "Simon, I wanted to start this by telling you that I love you. So much. And I know that I really fucked up, I was stupid and caught up in my own head, and I somehow was able to justify my actions to myself, but I know that what I did was wrong. And I know that I hurt you, and I am so incredibly sorry. And it kills me to think that I could be the reason for our relationship to end, because I really don't want that to happen, but I respect it if that's your decision" I know I probably forgot to say something that I had planned, but it doesn't matter, because I think (hope) I said everything I needed to say.

Simon sits silently for a moment, picking at the grass to distract himself. When he looks back up at me his eyes are glassy. "What did you do?" He asks, and I'm confused.

"What?" I ask calmly, even though I'm not feeling very calm.

"In your whole apology, you danced around what you did. Tell me what you did, and admit it" he folds his arms. Fuck he was really paying attention. I hate the word, It such an uncomfortable word because there's no way to justify it.

"I- I cheated on you" I don't let my voice waver, I need to keep it together, he shouldn't have to comfort me in this situation.

"Thank you" he still looks serious, and it's making me nervous. "And Baz, I love you. And I forgive you, but if this ever, and I mean ever, happens again we're over. Do you understand that?" He asks firmly, but I can barely listen to his tone when the words coming out of his mouth are so relieving to hear.

"Yes I do, and I promise I am one hundred percent yours" I nod and to my annoyance feel tears pricking my eyes. I still feel awkward meeting his gaze, but I force myself to anyway.

"Good" he smiles and leans in to kiss me.

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The next chapter is the final one 🤫