Darkside

Cash: So, I have to ask...what drew you to true crime? Some of the other Darkside members got into it through TV shows and podcasts, but I know a couple of people who like mystery solving because their own life has always been a mystery.

Luvvie: You know, I never thought of it like that, but you might be right. My life has always been a bit of a mystery. One that I couldn't solve, so maybe I like trying to solve others. Having that detachment makes it easier to see what I don't of my own.

Cash: Care to elaborate?

Luvvie: My mother went missing when I was a baby. My father has no idea what happened to her and I don't remember her enough to ever think that I really knew her. Now, all I know is what other people can tell me about her and that's always through their own filter. Plus, no one wants to say anything bad about the missing woman, even if there was something negative in her life that could lead me to her.

Cash: Wow, and your father isn't looking for her still?

Luvvie: Well, it's been over two decades now so I think he's resigned. Apparently, he did a lot in the beginning, but then he started to feel guilty about neglecting me to try and find her. Ironic really because once he found booze, he stopped looking after me anyway.

Cash: I'm sorry for asking. I didn't know I would bring up painful memories for you.

Luvvie: It's okay. I'm away from it now. I have my own place so I only need to see my dad once a week to check in on him. I think he's grieving still because he doesn't have any answers, but he won't accept help so there isn't much I can do about it. Just be there.

Cash: I think that's what draws us all here, isn't it? The idea of not having an ending to a story is too much. We need those answers, even if we have to find them ourselves.

Luvvie: I tried to find them myself when it came to my mother, when I hit fifteen-years-old, I did everything I could. I thought I was a real little detective. I even developed some theories.

Cash: Care to share any of those theories with me?

Luvvie: Well, at first I thought there was another man she ran off with. I guessed she was so madly in love with him that her passion overshadowed everything else. Including me. I concocted this wild love story in my mind and somehow, that made it easier.

Cash: But you don't think that's what happened?

Luvvie: Well from the bits and pieces I have heard about her, she isn't the sort to cheat. She was much too sensible to get caught up in a torrid love affair. Plus, the fact that she still hasn't been in touch after all these years...well, it speaks volumes, doesn't it?

Cash: Anything else?

Luvvie: The most obvious thing is murder. For some reason, she was killed. Jealousy, she was in the wrong place at the wrong time and got caught by a serial killer.

Cash: So, you thought you were in the middle of your own true crime incident?

Luvvie: I guess I still am and always will be. Until this gets solved and it turns out to be something else.

Cash: You sound like you have an idea...

Luvvie: I like the theory that she just took off and walked away from her life, went to start a new one. She just became someone else.

Cash: But she would have left you, walked away from you, doesn't that hurt?

Luvvie: I suppose that depends on why she felt the need to walk away. I imagine that life just got too much for her and she had to walk away. She went to find her own joy. I don't begrudge her that even if it means leaving me behind.

Cash: Wow, that's one way to look at it. A very mature way.

Luvvie: I didn't always look at it with a mature head, believe me. That's just come with age. Anyway, what about you? What got you into true crime and murder mysteries?

Cash: No big trauma in my past, I guess I just kinda stumbled onto it by accident.