Scenarios Of Us

Karupukan 101

Ive always given her what she wanted.

But when I ask for what I want.. she cant give it to me

"Please Ly, I need you.."

"I wont be here if not for you, please!"

"Please don't leave me!"

"Lyyy, naman eh"

I close my eyes shut, my jaw clenched, my fist balled.

The sofa was slightly damp with her tears while I'm tensed as fuck sitting here.

Is this it? Or bibigay nanaman ako gaya ng dati.

The decision I'm gonna make is going to be my future

And I want her to be in my future

But not like this

I know this is toxic

It'll only get us both down and drowning on our own blood

But maybe what I dreamed of will eventually happen? just a little bit more time? Nakapag antay nga ako ng ilang taon.

But what if it doesn't and we just continue being like this?

I want to let go of what we have..

But I can't, I- I just can't

I always tell her she doesn't deserve to be left alone, and then later on I'm the one whose gonna be leaving her?

Is that right? I'll be a goddamn hypocrite.

Maybe.. just maybe may chance talaga.

Or wala talaga..

She needs me but not like how I needed her.

Maybe wala nga talaga..

But..

Oh jesus christ, help me, please.

"Tumayo ka nga jan..

nagpprank lang ako eh."

Damn those eyes

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Sorryyy sabaw. Sorry didn't proofread. Bawi nalang po ako.

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