Ashton Irwin Imagines - COMPLETED

I can't breathe (requested)

The smile on your boyfriend's face was bright as he sat beside you.

You held your breath and as he reached for your hand you pulled it away. He frowned at the sight of your worried eyes. He noticed the way your fingers were shaking and the way your chest heaved slightly.

"You're shaking, baby. What's wrong?" He asked with a voice as soft as his gaze.

You didn't want to tell him. You didn't wanna admit to what you had done last night, but you had no choice.

You always made a pact to be honest with each other, no matter how messed up things are, and even though you know there's most likely no way he's ever gonna forgive you for what you'd done, he deserved to know the secret that was eating you alive.

"I ruined everything." You mumbled as the first tear fell from your eye. "What? Hey, I'm sure that's not true."

"Yes, it is! You're gonna hate me for what I did." He took your hand again and even when you tried to pull away again, he just tightened his grip and gazed into your teary eyes. "I'm not gonna hate you. Just talk to me. Whatever it is, we can work through it."

You whimpered and shook your head. "The party last night. I got a little carried away with drinking and... Ash, I woke up this morning in bed with another guy." He tensed up and pulled his hand away from yours.

"Ashton I'm so sorry. I don't know what happened. I got so drunk and I," you paused, sniffling as he pinched the bridge of his nose. "I know I messed up but I swear that I'd never do it on purpose. I don't even remember anything about it-"

"And you think that makes it all better? You slept with someone else?! Y/n how could you?" He yelled as a tear slid down his cheek.

You lowered your head in shame. "I don't know. I'm sorry. Please, Ashton, you have to believe me. I love you and I feel so awful about it. I was drunk and I didn't know what I was doing! You know me, you know I'd never do this on purpose."

He shook his head and tugged at his hair.

"Please say something, Ashton."

He looked up at you with tears in his eyes. "I can't even look at you right now."

Your bottom lip quivered as you lowered your gaze to his fingers. You tried to take them into yours but he yanked his hand away with a loud scoff.

"I-I need some air. I don't know when I'll be back or if I'll be back at all. I might just have the boys come and collect my things for me. I don't know, y/n. I can't breathe. I can't believe you'd do this to me... to us."

He stormed out, slamming the door behind him.

You couldn't seem to breathe now, either.

Your relationship was most likely over. You had this feeling he wasn't gonna come back. And if he didn't, you'd understand why perfectly.

You had no one to blame for this outcome but yourself.