Christian Turners' Upward Fall (BXB)

My whole life

I thought my supposed sexy and hot rebound sex was meant to me a one time thing.

Apparently I was wrong.

Just 2 days later and Alaric asked for help with some filing in his office after hours, I thought nothing of it because I'm a dumb bitch.

Anyway, to get to the point, he ended having me fuck him. He was the more "dominant" one between us two, but he claimed he wanted to "feel me" inside of him. What a whore. Well I guess that makes me a whore as well.

"We aren't dating" I told Alaric sternly as he began to kiss me in the staff room. He rolled his eyes and just laughed.

"Obviously not. We're fuck buddies or whatever you kids call it" he says.

"Why do you sound like an old man" I accused, he was only 27 he acts like he's in his 50's.

"I am an old man" he tells me with a sigh.

"I wouldn't let an old man fuck me" I say. He just shrugs and chuckles softly.

"How's Samuel?" He asks. Okay so not only did I let him fuck me I also told him how I was sorta kinda always thinking about Samuel 24/7. He was actually really supportive about it.

"He's okay. We haven't talked very recently but I did stay over at his house just 3 days ago" I say. He just nods.

"Just go for it. He probably likes you" he tells me seriously. I look at my shoes.

"I don't know if I like him or not. Sure it's true I can't stop thinking about him but I think that's just because I'm an attention whore? Plus I want to fuck him" I didn't realize how vulgar I sounded until Alaric was making disgusted faces at me.

"Okay whatever you say attention whore" he mocks. We both just end up laughing together.

It's not like I could deny it. I was for sure an attention whore. Well I haven't always been one but Claire gave me so much attention and love that without it I couldn't help but feel lost in every way.

I didn't have good parents to love me. My brother was far away. And my sister was busy getting in on with her husband so they can have a baby. Plus I lived alone.

I was still just a teenager. Aren't I aloud to be a little starved for attention? The two people in my life that gave me all the love they could offer were Corey and Claire. But both of them are out of my life. At least I think Claire is out of it. I hope not, Claire has been a good friend. We were friends before we even started dating, I hoped it would just continue that way.

I guess I never truly realized how alone I really was. How absent love was in my life. How long it has been since I've been hugged by my mother.

"I'm heading out. I'm gonna go to New Jersey" I say. Alaric's head shoots up. He knows exactly why I'm going.

"Want me to come?" He ask. I shake my head and grab my things.

"Take someone with you. Please don't go alone" he tells me. I stop moving and bring my gaze to the ground. God I hated being treated like fine china.

He was right though. If I go alone I'll do something stupid I'm sure of it.

"Okay" I mumble.

The phone rings 3 times before Samuel picks up.

"Sammy my boy. My main man how've you been homie?" I say obnoxiously into the phone. It's silent for a few moments.

"I can't even express how disgusting and repulsive that was" he says calmly. That results in me bursting out into fits of laughter. God this kid knew how to ruffle my feathers.