Lost Without You {COMPLETED}

Chapter Two

Lapis's POV:
I can't stop crying, neither could Bismuth or Peridot. We've grown so attached to him that it was hard to see him go. Don't get me wrong I'm more than happy for him. He needed a break from all of this that's caused him so much pain. I wouldn't want to see him in the position he was two months ago.

      ~Two months earlier~
Thank god we brought Steven back to his senses again. He's now just balling his eyes out, holding onto lion. I have this urge to surge forward and wrap my arms tightly around him, but I keep my distance letting him have this moment that he needed for so long.

Finally after an hour his sobbing began to quiet down and he lifted his face from Lion's mane. He looks at all of us with eyes full of guilt. "I-I'm sorry.. I could've hurt all of you... I didn't mean for this to happen.. God I'm so stupid..." He curls up into his knees, holding himself.

I swear it's like I'm looking at a mirror image of my old self from years past. Alone, afraid and broken.

"Steven..." Connie kneels down next to him and holds his hand. "You were afraid to show this side of yourself, you had a melt down, you needed it."

Pearl kneels down next to her with a sad smile, "It's true Steven. You didn't have to hide all these feelings from us, were family and you could tell us anything. We're for you.

"Yeah bud we ain't going anywhere," Amethyst smiles.

"We love you Steven, no matter what," Garnet takes her visor off, tears clouding her vision.

A bigger stream of tears begin to tumble down his face. "I-I.. I love you guys too!" He launches himself forward hitting them tightly as we all smile at the happy family moment. Garnet gestures us all to come and join in so we do. Each person one by one surrounds him in a hug of pure love, something he needed for so long.

            ~Flash back over~

The amount of tears that were shed that night was unforgettable. I just hope he didn't leave to run away from his self and the problems that follow. I tried but I finally faced them, now it's his turn.

Peridot is clutching onto Steven's shirt he gave her, and Bismuth hung the crystal gem flag high enough for all Little Home World to see. As for me I sit here in my art room, gazing down at the art set he gave me. Tears begin to bubble over, my lip quivers as I grasp the box tightly. "Thank you Steven... For everything you've done for me," I whisper to myself clutching the art box to my chest.

Steven held such a special place in my gem, ever since the first day we met. It was like fireworks as human say it were going off inside me. He made me feel so wanted and loved. I was so grateful to have this family of my own who cares for me.

I stand up off the floor and grab a canvas board, setting it up on a stand. My hands slowly lift the box and gaze inside. As the box said there was so much to work with. My thought drift back to Steven, and I keep that image there.

Grasping a paint brush, I close my eyes. Tears drip down my face like a water fall. Focusing my gem powers, I feel the tears lift off my cheek. My eyes open and my imagination does the rest. Soaking my tears in paint, my fingers glide along the paper. Steven's handsome adorable face stays in my mind, which makes my cheeks grow warm. Watered pain splash against the paper, creating the image I see. Splash after splash, more and more tears flow to keep my work going. Finally after hours of work I take a look at my work.

Steven's bright light of sunshine face is staring at me in his attire with the biggest smile. Grasping the portrait I dry it out with my powers and hang it up in the front of the room. I smile, stapping back to admire it. But that smile soon turns into a frown, which then turns into sadness. Tears overflow me as I drop to my knees.

I couldn't help it no matter how happy I felt for Steven, there was still an empiness I couldn't get rid of. What was this feeling? Why did it hurt so much?... Why couldn't I stop crying...

My tear glazed eyes gaze up at the portrait of Steven. "Oh Steven..." my lip quivers as I curl up on the floor, holding myself. "I feel so lost and confused without you..." my whispers become sobs as I clutch tightly onto myself. "Please come back to me.. I need you...."

That night I cried every single tear that I could to a point I couldn't anymore. I just closed my eyes curled up in a ball, and fell asleep to the thought of Steven here holding me like I desperately wanted. But I knew it was never going to happen. Steven, wherever you are now I know it's stupid but please come back soon. I-I.. I need you.. More than you can posibly know. There was no more denying it I was in love with Steven just like Ruby and Sapphire were for each other. But he's with Connie and I had to accept that, no matter how much this hurt.

Hopefully tomorrow I could forget these thoughts and only think of the happy times Steven and I shared. Heh.. Who was I kidding? They weren't going to go away... It's hopeless to think that someday, somewhere Steven would finally be with me. My thoughts soon ceased and I fell asleep on the floor, a broken gem with nobody to love.

Second chapter is out! What did y'all think of it? It was pretty depressing I know, but there's more soon to come. Anyway as always I hope you all have enjoyed this chapter, and I'll see you guys in the next one, laters.  :)