Lost Without You {COMPLETED}

Chapter Four

Steven's POV:
"So how have you been, Steven?" My current therapist Amanda asks.

"Good so far," I chuckle, rubbing the back of my neck. "Though I did walk into a robbery in progress."

Her eyes go as wide as saucers, "You did? Where?"

"Pennsylvania," I simply respond. "But it's okay I dealt with the guy, and he's probably going to jail for a long time."

"You don't understand the law system much, do you?" She asks.

Come to think of it dad never taught me the law. The only thing I was told is don't talk to strangers, and get myself in trouble. Thankfully the last part hasn't happened yet. "Not really," I admit with a sigh. "My dad didn't teach me much."

"Your father doesn't sound like he was your best role model growing up," She replies as she writes things down on a clip board.

She isn't entirely wrong in this. The gems were mostly my parental figures. He mostly stayed in his fan, slacking around doing nothing. I still love him, but even then he thinks he had it rough growing up with his parents. That is nothing in comparison to what hell I've been through my entire childhood. "I guess," is all I give as a reply.

"Other than those two things," She looks up from her board. "How have you been? Have you had anymore melt downs, panic attacks, anything you'd like to discuss about?"

I lean back in my chair with a smile, "I've been good for the most part. No melt downs or panic attacks either. I'm just enjoying, exploring the open road ahead of me."

She nods, marking some stuff down. "Alright, that's all for today Steven. If anything does happen, do contact me immediately. I want to ensure you're safe and mentally healthy."

I nod, "you've been a big help to me ever since Connie's mom sent me to you."

"We're good friends," She smiles, "and of course Steven it's my job. Speaking of Connie though before we end this session. How's your relationship with her?"

This is a rough question in it's own. She's hardly given me a call or text. Probably because she's busy so I try not to go into a full blown panic attack. "It's been good, we're actually meeting up today at a breakfast diner."

"That's good to hear. Anyway, I'll see you next week Steven, same time. Take care," She ends the video chat as do I before saying goodbye as well.

Who knew, me Steven Universe would actually need a therapist. (sadly a lot of people buddy) But Amanda has been a big help, she even set me up with a medication that's gonna help me with my mood swings, and depression.

I feel my phone buzz in my pocket as I pull it out; it's from Connie.

Connie: Hey, you ready to meet up at the breakfast diner?

Steven: Yeah! I can't wait to see you, I've missed you so much ❤️

Connie: Same here, but we also really need to talk so meet me soon.

Weird, no babe? No loving nicknames from her. Is something going on? I hope I didn't do anything wrong.

Steven: Okay babe, see you soon. Love you ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

Connie: See you soon Steven.

I hope everything is okay with her... Guess I'll find out soon. Leaving my apartment, I grab my keys and my other things then walk out the door.

~A few hours later~
Eventually, I make it to the diner. Lion is laying outside, Connie must be already inside. As soon as I step out a tongue whips across my face. "Heh, I missed you too Lion," I gently pet him as he let's out a pur. Even if you went with Connie, you're still my buddy. Closing my door, I head inside.

This diner is definitely different from keystones. More cleaner with brand new booths and wooden tables. With a ghostly white ceiling, it's a nice touch. I look around until my eyes catch sight of the woman of my dreams.

She was wearing a normal red t-shirt with jeans. Her hair still maintaining the style it's had. Connie notices me and gestures me over with a smile. I take a seat on the opposite side of the booth of her.

"Hey," I smile lovingly, "It's good to see that beautiful face of yours again," I reach out touching her hand, but she pulls away. "Babe? What's wrong?"

She sighs, "nothing is wrong per say. But we do need to talk about us."

"Okay?" I raise my brow in confusion. Though I can feel this suspicion in the back of my head, screaming that she's going to break up with me. I shove those insecurities down and continue to listen.

She sighs, "Steven, you know I've enjoyed our time together right?"

"Yeah, so have I. You've really helped me heal mentally," I reply with a smile.

"Well, here's the thing. I might not be able to do that for much longer. I ended up finding a college that I really like. But it's very far from home, and I wouldn't want you to be sitting here depressed you can't get to me," She continues on.

"So what are you saying?" My anxiety begins to rise as I can feel my breathing going out of wack.

"Steven I..." She sighs, "I'm saying that I think it's best if we just stay friends. I just can't let you wait years for me to finish."

My heart starts beating erratically, "B-but we always have Lion! I could visit you like that."

"Steven..." She sighs deeply, "I'll be too busy to have your attention half the time. I need to focus on my career, not a relationship. I will always love you Steven, with all of my heart but this is what's best. I'm sorry... I gotta go," Connie stands up, giving me a kiss on the cheek and a hug then leaving out the door.

I sit there frozen like a statue. Tears trying their hardest to leak out from my eyes. Suddenly I feel a rush of heat, a very familiar feeling overcoming me. My skin begins to glow pink. Oh no no no! Not again!

"Hey, are you okay sir?" A waitress asked me with concern written in her voice.

I gotta get out of here... Getting out of the both I rush out of the diner, feeling time slow around me. I quickly hop in my car, speeding out of the parking lot. My skin continues to glow brighter, "No... No! No! No! NO! I can't do this again! I ca-.." My words get caught in my throat as I look in my rear view mirror. What I see chills me to the core.

The monster that I became two months ago was now looking me in the eyes. "No... Your not real!" without realizing I wasn't looking at the road. I feel my car veer off the road, suddenly in an instant I'm slammed into my steering wheel when my car collides into a tree, knocking me unconscious.

Whelp this chapter escalated quickly huh? Don't worry it gets worse from here on out. I hope you all enjoyed this chapter and I'll see you all in the next one, laters. :)