Spencer and Toby: together for eternity

Christmas anxiety

Spencer's POV:

(Christmas day)

Toby was never the same after I told him... I don't understand why he would be upset with me... But this is all my fault.

I had my first drink with Carson before I knew and I couldn't stop for a few days... Maybe that impacted on the baby. I feel so stupid.

When Toby was at work I was on my break and he got a text. I glanced at it and saw that it was from Bailey.

I couldn't help but look.

I grabbed the phone and guessed Toby's password. Lucky for me it was my first guess. The day we met.

Toby: Hey!

Bailey: Hey Toby.

Toby: *fuck off

Bailey: Why so scared? 😯

Toby: evil bitch leave. Us. Alone!

Bailey: block me 😏

Toby: I have you obsessive bitch! Stop making new emails fucking bitch.

Bailey: I love you to 😘

That was the last message she just sent. Why is this happening?

I heard Toby unlocking the door so I quickly put his phone back.

"Hey!" I said as happily as possible.

"Where um... Where were you?" I said after he didn't respond.

"Not now..." He said trying to be calm. I was about to talk but he went into the bedroom.

I went into the bathroom and turned on the shower so he wouldn't hear me sob.

After the shower got to steamy I was forced to shut it off. I tried holding back the tears but it wouldn't work. I went as quite as possible to make sure he wouldn't hear me but I think he did.

He got up and started walking to the bathroom. I wiped off the mascara stains and applied more mascara. My eyes were still red.

"Spencer?" Toby said softly.

"I'll... Be out in a second" I said washing off the rest.

I didn't understand why Toby was ignoring me. "Spencer" Toby repeated.

"Toby give me just a minute" I said tearing up again. I heard Toby press against the door as if I had been gone forever and he was missing me.

I blinked the tears away and walked out. "We have to go" Toby said grabbing me. "What?" I asked. "We're gonna be late" Toby exclaimed.

"I don't feel like going anywhere right now" I said pulling back. Toby grabbed me a little to hard and made me put on my shoes. "Toby I'm tired" I said. "Trust me" he said. "Where would we go on Christmas?" I mumbled.

"you'll see" he said. I don't feel like going anywhere I just wanna drink eggnog open gifts and watch Christmas movies.

He pulled me into the car (rental) and I just wanted to fall asleep.

When we got there it was either a small hotel or a huge house...

When we walked in it was dark... Suddenly the lights flickered on and everyone I ever knew was gathered in there.

One would think I was happy but the side effects if cancer are still with me and I'm just very sad and depressed.

There was a picture of me in with dark circles around my eyes a tube up my nose and I didn't have any pants on. "Congrats spencer!" Everyone yelled.

I was embarrassed. By Toby. And overwhelmed and upset...

I didn't want anyone to pity me if I broke down in tears so I ran out and did it.

Toby walked up to me and asked me why I did that. "I'm embarrassed and overwhelmed and upset... I don't want to be around people!" I yelled.

"Spencer nobody here will judge you" he said trying I drag me back in. "No!" I yelled. "Please" he yelled grabbing me by my hips.

I squirmed out and slapped him.

I straightened my coat and walked into the car.

I felt bad at first but he was forcing me into something I didn't want to do so... He should be apologizing to me.

I crossed my arms and slid down my seat as Toby got into drivers seat.

He didn't even drive. "Why did I think you would ever need to be protected?" He said chuckling. I was about to talk but he kissed me. Hard.

His tounge touched the roof of my mouth then went further down my throat.

I didn't stop him... If you had this hot guy trying to apologize to you with "mouth sex" as Hanna calls it then would you stop him?