My Strict Professor

Chapter 39

A/n- play the multimedia above. Nichange ko pala ung multimediaaa waaa mas nakadagdag sa sakit ung slowed+reverb na version huehue

Mandy's pov

Maybe because of tiredness for a 3 hours travel, I didn't noticed that Hailey fell asleep on our bed.

I walked towards her and sit beside her.

I held her face using my thumb and started to trace it.

Just being this close to her makes my tears starting to fall. And yes I didn't noticed that it's already falling.

God, I miss her so much. I feel empty without her.

"Wuv. Hmm you fell asleep?"

asking her as if she'll answer me. Atleast kapag tulog sya may rason talaga para hindi nya ako kausapin. Pero iba talaga ung sakit lalo na kapag iniignore nya ako at umaasta na parang wala ako sa tabi nya.

"W-wuv, I miss you so much. I can't sleep, I can't eat kasi hindi ko parin maprocess lahat ng nangyayari sa'tin. Hindi ko nga alam kung pano kong nakakaya na bumangon sa umaga at makaharap ka sa eskwelahan. Hindi ko na alam kung pano pa ngumiti kasi wala e. Nawala na ung rason kung bakit ako ngumingiti. I just can't understand, why did you decided to end our relationship. A part of me is saying that you don't love me anymore. But I don't wanna believe it. Because the day you confessed your love to me, is the day that I told myself "She'll be my last". Everyday, I am always excited of going to school, I'm always excited of waking up, I'm always excited of checking my phone because of your messages. Remember, we had a lot of small fights because of you topakin side?"

I can't help but to laugh when said the "topakin" word.

Because for real. She's immature sometimes, she's suck sometimes. But we all know that I will do anything for her.

"I just miss seeing you being immature. I miss you, clinging to my arms. I miss your kwentos. Kasi araw araw kang may chika sakin. I just miss all about you. And the only thing I wanna wish right now. Is for us to get back to what we used to be. Can we?"

I wiped my tears and laughed bitterly.

"When you started to get cold? I felt terrified. Kasi alam ko na kung saan papunta to eh. Pinipilit kong lumaban, kumapit sa relasyon natin pero pano ko to ilalaban kung yung kakampi ko sawa na, ayaw na. Hindi ko naman na pipiliting ibalik pa ung pagmamahal mo, kung talagang nawala na. I'm just borrowing this day para iparamdam sayo kung gano talaga kita kamahal. And kung talagang hindi na maaayos. I will let you go naman e. I will accept that we're no longer each other's shoulder. I will accept that there will be no us at the end."

Ang sakit sakit na pakawalan ka. Pero kung yan ang gusto mo. Bakit naman hindi diba? Kung yan ang magiging dahilan para sumaya ka, of course I can do it.

Mas lalo akong nasasaktan. You know why? Because she's too near, but it feels like we're million miles away from each other.

I can't help it.

With my face full of tears
I started to move my face near her lips.

Our lips were just few inches away from each other, I closed my eyes and in just a snap, I felt hers.

Habang magkalapat ang aming mga labi, tila ba muling nagbalikan lahat ng masasayang ala-ala kong kasama sya.

Alam kong nababasa na din ang mukha ni hailey dahil sa mga luha kong walang tigil sa pagtulo ngunit ang gusto ko lang ngayon, maramdaman ang mga labi nya kahit sa huling pagkakataon.

But then. I quickly moved away from her when she move.

"What are you doing?" She plainly asked without any expressions on her face.