- Gwindor is extremely selfless, even despite all of his traumas and losses- Your happiness means everything to him, even if it isn't with him, Gwindor will always love and support you in everything you do.
- Though he will make sure you are aware of the consequences and risks that may come with something you do, so you aren't blindsided if you continue down a particular path.
- Because of this he is someone that you can go to with anything that troubles you.
- He is gentle but honest in guiding or giving perspective to whatever it is you have asked for or needed to hear about.
- Gwindor gives exceptional and unbiased counsel to you always.
- Another thing about Gwindor that is unparalleled to most, is his bravery.
- Physically he is weaker than most elves, and has struggled to take back up sword fighting with one hand, but that won't stop him from doing his damnedest to keep you safe.
- He knows fighting again is a risk, he knows he is weaker than other elves, he is aware of everything that can go wrong for him because of it, but it doesn't stop him from trying.
- But he is utterly committed to you even if it will cost him his life, you are his number one priority above all else.
- Gwindor uses your happiness as a way to avoid the trauma of battle, thralldom and loss and if you aren't careful he will dwindle himself into exhaustion.
- It becomes most apparent that he is deeply exhausted, his gray hair seems so dull, and his face looks a little older than it already is, and his shoulders sag.
- You are a welcome reprieve from all the trauma, giving him more of a reason to try and upkeep his positive attitude and out look.
- So if you suggest that the two of you go take a break from all of the stress of every day life, he won't fight you on it.
- It'll in no time have him feeling more like his new normal self again.
- Even though Gwindor will not say it or show it even in private, he worries that you too may want to leave him as Finduilas has.
- He does love you incredibly deeply, so if you not wanting to be with him is what makes you happy, he will not make you feel guilty for it.
- So when you reassure him at random that its him you want, it fills his heart with so much happiness and confidence.
- You letting him know he makes you happy has the same effect on him, its such a huge boost to his pride.
- Gwindor does suffer from bad ptsd and he is an expert at hiding it from everyone, you included.
- Nightmares are a common occurrence, as is some paranoia, dealing with flashbacks and intrusive thoughts. It's not something he wants to trouble you with.
- BUT if it makes you happy to care for him during these taxing moments, Gwindor will not turn you away or try and mask it further.
- His favorite is when you hold him after an episode of nightmares, listening to the sound of your steady heartbeat as he calms his breathing.
- Your happiness is everything to him, and it feels good to know that you love him so much you'd go out of your way to care for him.
- Gwindor will always do everything in his power to keep you happy and safe, wanting nothing more than to be the reason for your happiness.
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Tolkien Elven Imagines and Headcanons Volume 1
FanfictionA collection of my Tolkien imagines and headcanons on my tumblr called The Elven Haven!