Skies' not the limit

Chapter 33

                       Nasa daan kami ni Eros papunta sa condo ko. I'm getting my stuffs here. I sighed with the thought. "Call me when you're done. Akyat ako sa unit mo. May dadaanan lang ako." Eros said as I went ouside of his car.

Eros has become extra careful. Simula nang malaman niya kahapon na buntis ako, he never left me. Maya't-maya niya ako chini-check if I'm okay.

Bago umakyat, I decided to go sa Garden. I always loved the view of the flowers beside the pool here.

Hindi ko alam kung namamalikmata ako, pero I saw CJ.

"Yeah. I'm happy for you. I missed you." He smiled at the girl he's with.

I'm lying if I say that it isn't painful.

"C-CJ. Usap tayo, please." Tawag ko sa kanya at nakasalubong ko siya sa garden ng Condo. I finally gathered my strength to approach him.

"Hey, Erin." He smiled- and the girl beside him smiled as well.

"Kapatid mo?" Turo ko sa babaeng nasa tabi niya.

"Oh-hindi." He said and that made  my world shatter. "Una ka na sa taas. Usap lang kami ng dating kong schoolmate." And that hurt me even more.

"Congratulations? I-I didn't know." I stutteringly said.

"Okay lang. Wala 'yun. Alam naman ng team na laro lang 'yun. Siguro 'yung nangyari satin, it's just because of -" I stopped him.

"Huwag mo nang ituloy. 'Di ko na 'yun inalala, grabe. Ang sakit mo naman magsalita sa nothing!" I laughed so I won't look like my eyes are wet and the tears won't drip. Yumuko ako, but my tears betrayed me. They fell as I bowed my head.

"H-hey, are you crying?" Gulat na sabi niya at inangat ang ulo ko.

"Ha, hindi. Napuwing ako. Ano ka ba." I tried to sound funny.

"You're not." He intended.

"Please." I begged. "Tama na, CJ!" I shouted.

He's flabbergasted and taken aback.

"Tama na!" I kneeled at the ground but he held me. "Pa-fall ka! And do you know how much it hurts? Hindi! Kasi hindi naman ikaw 'yung nahulog! Hindi naman ikaw 'yung hindi sinalo! Matapos mo akong paasahin? I-update kung saan ka pupunta, sabihan na kumain na? You even gave me flowers everyday! Sinong hindi aasa, CJ? Maawa ka naman saakin! Hulog na hulog na ako, at hindi ko na alam paano aahon! I fell for you so damn much. I even gave you everything! You told me that you love me! Nasaan na?"

"So-sorry." He stuttered.

"Sorry. Ayan lang naman ang magagawa mo, eh. Kasi kasalanan ko. Bakit ba kasi ako ganito magmahal? Damn. Bigay todo e. I never listened. Sana nakinig nalang ako." Hindi ko na matuloy ang sinasabi ko dahil sa sunod sunod na luhang dumadaloy sa mata ko. "Sabi mo dati, gusto mo ako. Umamin ka, eh. Pinanghawakan ko, CJ. Naniwala ako. Kahit competitor kayo ni Daddy! I did everything to stop the fraud. Kahit friendship lang 'yung may kasiguraduhan saatin! Kasi akala ko magiging masaya ka don. Walang pipigil saatin." Halos hindi na ako makahinga sa mga luha ko.

"Hindi ko sinabing umasa ka. Oo, sige. Sinabi kong gusto kita. But it's just because- wala lang. Pampalipas oras ka lang. Hindi ko naman alam na ganyan ka aasa, eh. Besides, 21 ka palang naman. You're supposed to have fun. Madami ka pang makikilala."

"CJ, pwedeng hanggang next week? Kunyari, gusto mo ako? Kahit fake lang. Kahit isang linggo lang? I need you now, CJ. Isang linggo ka lang na magpapanggap." I cried.

"Don't be desperate." He's shocked by my words.

"Mahirap ba akong mahalin, CJ? Isang linggo lang naman, eh. You can take everything avay from me after that. CJ, lolo just died. Sige na. Kelangan ko ng comfort, eh. Kelangan ko ng kausap. Is it that hard to give?" My voice broke.