Pure-sue \ pər-ˈsü , -ˈsyü \

TWO

PSYCHE

I.
I was at the door towards the roof top of our campus. I would like to get through so that I may have a look at my favorite view where I could see the vast greeneries from the garden of the school and the clear blue skies. The roof top has been my escapism whenever I feel any outburst of emotions - whenever I feel happy, sad or even anxious about things. Often times I come here for a solitude.

But now, I can't seem to move my feet to get through. I know there is someone out there - and I know that I am very familiar with that person. I could hear the sound of a weeping person...I would like to comfort him but that person might think I am stepping beyond my boundaries.

His name is Lex!

I often see him along the corridors, the highway, and in the roof top. Just a while ago, I see him rushing towards his classroom. I know right away that he is running late and since I got an ample moment of time before my class, I had followed him as he runs hastily. Thus leads me here.

"Psyche! What are you doing here?" I was shocked when my friend asks me that as she saw me standing right in front of the roof top door.

"Ah...nothing...lets go back to our room." It was a lie but I need to tell her that to stop her from going out there.

We heeded back to our room. And out of the blue she asks me...

"Do you have anything like someone or something in mind?"

"Huh? What do you mean?"

"You know you've been acting weird the past days."

"Hahaha I laughed just so I could hide my feeling of uneasiness. She caught me off-guard."

I just continued to walk along the corridors so that I could avoid her following questions. But, I could not just get Lex out of my mind.

I don't know why I am too interested with that person. Whenever I see him, I could not help but to stop what I'm doing and focus on him. In fact, I could already memorize the thing he does, what he seems to like and even his schedule.

Gosh I sound like a maniac stalker!

I remembered the first time I met him. I was walking in the school grounds. I decided to roam around and tried to familiarize it since I was only new to this school that time. This school's ground was one of the best school grounds I have ever visited. Trees grow beside the benches that give shades so, though it past the lunch time, it was not hot to stay in there. I got to notice this guy who was sitting in one of the benches. He was reading. But after sometime, he closed the book and smiled. Wow it was the most beautiful smile I have ever seen. I guess the book was beautiful. I also want to read it. Actually, I am fond of reading books so I decided to go to him and ask the title of the book.
I approached him, but before I could even open my mouth, he already flashed a poker face. I guess, he doesn't want to be disturbed by others.

"You're smiling alone. Are you okay?" I asked him so that I could initiate any conversation with him. But he got up and walked immediately without even bothering to answer my question. I was shocked by his rude behavior.

I was about to confront him but I saw Anima, so I called her.

"Anima!" I shouted. Anima waved her hands. I saw the guy stopped and looked at my direction. Maybe she knew Anima. For the last time, I looked at him, and I could not stop wondering, what's with him? Did I offend him in any case?

I shook my head and tried to focus. Why am I even remembering that? I told myself.

"What's with you?" My friend asks me while looking at me weirdly.

"I just remembered something unpleasant."

"You know you could share what's bothering you any moment right? I am your friend and yet it seems that I can't even decipher the things that run into your mind." I felt a bit of sadness in her voice.

"Of course Anima" (my friend's name is too unique that I would want my child, if ever I could have, to be called like hers). I told her.

I am so lucky that I got a friend like her. No! I am more than lucky...I am blessed.

"Don't worry, whenever I am bothered by something, you'll be the first to know." I assured her.

I don't think I could find someone like her again. So am a little guilty that I'm hiding what I feel towards Lex. I know she won't understand. It's better to keep it while I'm not yet sure of what really it is.

Anima smiled when I got to assure her.

"Let's go. Mr. Carnis might already be in the classroom." She said.

Mr. Carnis is our Philosophy professor. Actually, I enrolled his class later than the others. He is mysterious and the way he looks seem to be scrutinizing my inner being.