Pure-sue \ pər-ˈsü , -ˈsyü \

IV

IV.
Anima didnt attend school again today. It's already been days since that happened and I was guilty. I should've not felt that way before.

Time is unusually longer this time. I practically just pushing myself to survive this day. Its really different without Anima with me. I was too much attached with her presence that is why her absence leaves a great deal.

Welp, its true! We only realize how valuable someone's presence is when we already feel their absence.

Immersed with my thoughts, Lex saw me from a distance. He  walked towards me as i continued staring in the oblivion.

"Hey!" He snapped. "What's with that sulky face? He teasingly commented. "Got a problem?" He asked

"Im worried at Anima. It has already been days and still i heard nothing from her. I know i dont deserve to worry about her now since i got afraid of her, but still...i consider her a friend, my dearest at that." I sighed.

"Was that a problem?" He hissed. "Why not go to their house and visit her, you are friends right? Unless i am wrong" he annoyingly said.

But he got a point. I hate to admit it but he really had stirred something out of me. I couldnt explain much as to what is it, but...ugh never mind.

"Hey!" He snapped me back to reality. "What are you doing? Let's go" he urged me as he grabbed my wrist.

I was shocked - a mild electric shock at that! Something crawled in my skin as he held my hand. My heart is thumping really fast. Woah i need air. Oxygen please! My stomach feels really aweful, and again I got butterflies within me.

I am staring at his back, thankfully he couldnt see me. Because i think i am blushing really hard. I feel hot. My cheek is giving me an extreme shade of red - maybe as red as tomato.

I shook my head to clear my mind and to calm my heart. This is dangerous, excitingly dangerous i gasped.

And at that, unknowingly, within a couple of minutes we have reached the bus stop.

There are only few waiting, five people in particular. Two of them is a couple, a lady in her late 20's i guessed, an elderly, and...a lady in white...

I gasped. I immediately pulled my hand from Lex's grip as i looked at the part where i've seen the lady at my age again. She's no longer there.

"How was Sophia?" i muttered shyly at Lex.

"Huh?", Shock as he was, "sh-she's okay, i guessed" he stuttered. "Why do you ask?"

"Ah, nothing, i just suddenly remembered her." I looked down and grinned. My gosh what am i saying, it's obviously sound like a lie. I told myself.

"You know what..." he paused as he tried to muster some courage. "I dont know, but she is something else. I have never met someone as bold and full of wisdom as her. She always keeps me shaken in what i believed in but i always find that pretty interesting" his eyes are shinning in full admiration.

"I felt a little sad, not because i am jealous but things are more complicated than i thought. How will i tell him that---

And just at that, the bus arrives. So we get in and sit towards the middle part.

"How do you know if you already love a person? He asked. That was rather out of the blue. "Ah wait, have you already fallen in love?" He curiously asked as he turn and looked at me.

"Uhm...i dont know if that could be considered love, but regardless of the experience, i believe that singles know more about love than those who are in a relationship." I muttered.

I know that he wanted to asks why based from his frowning, so i continued.

"Singles see a bigger picture than those who are in a relationship, since they could see both sides' point compared to those who are inloved  where they rather see only their own feelings and tend to disregard their partner's side. They only see their partner's mistakes and fail to see theirs. I think singles become spectators while those who are in a  relationship become actors. Spectators see a wider and bigger picture while actors could only see what's in front of them and fail to see what is beyond that." I thoroughly explained. I know this is a lenghty explanation yet i really would want to express my side.

Lex, much to his silence, stared at me in complete amusement when i was done talking.

Ehem, i cleared my throat to signal him i am done.

"Uh-ah..." He muttered as he tried to collect his thoughts.

"Well, that is a pretty explanation" he said awkwardly. Even his face seems to look awkward.

I chuckled...i dont know but i find him cute at that.

He pouted and he turned to look at the window. Now, he seems to be in deep thinking as seeing him silently gawking the road.

And so i reach for my earphones in my bag and plug it in, i'd like to listen to my playlist to somehow escape from the reality.