Pure-sue \ pər-ˈsü , -ˈsyü \

III

III.

Lucid Interval...

A crazy person gains a momentarily sane moment. That is what happened to Mr. Carnis. And I guess, at that moment, he could no longer carry the weight of his previous actions, so he took his life. For him, that might be the price of what he has done. 

Im looking at Anima who's now lying on the hospital bed. Yes, thankfully she was alive. As for Psyche, she is soundly asleep beside her.

I looked at her...and I cannot help but to be reminded of what Mr. Carnis had told me at that day...

----- Mr. Carnis was already dead when the police and the ambulance came. But before he took his life he said something I couldn't really understand.

"Thank you for the short mem'ries Lex. But Im afraid it ends here. Everything ends here." Mr. Carnis huffed.

I furrowed my brows because I didnt get what he just said.

"I'm sorry..." He glanced at me and gave me a smile. "Please continue to hate me and as much as possible please forget me."

"Ah, by the way dont become like me. You know, we share something similar. Forgive yourself about what you have done to your parents. Forgive yourself and continue to move forward. Dont be so stuck up with the past, remember that you are living in the present and that there is definitely a future for you. So loosen up." He said.

"And..." he paused for a while at that... "you might have already noticed this, but please take care of Psyche. I dont want her to end up like me. She has definitely something more that are in store for her. She, idolizing me, will lead her to feel astray." He bowed his head as he said that. He might be feeling guilty towards her.

Confused as I was, I could only nod at that.

..."Oh, you're here? Psyche huffed when she opens her eyes. I immediately pulled back my gaze so as not to be awkward.

"Ah-uhm...ye-yeah. I was just nearby so I decided to give Anima a visit. I stuttered. I dont know why but I became restless.

"Ahh, is that so? Have you eaten?" She asked while rubbing her eyes. I could say that she just woke up at that.

I smiled. Maybe she is still half asleep otherwise she wouldnt be this casual to me.

And yelp, just after a while, she became awkward when she realized I am here.

"Oh sh--" she gasped. She almost curse out loud if she just hadn't hold herself.

Silence over rule the room.

Everything became awkward at that. Neither one of us wants to talk yet we know that we also want to say something with each other.

"Uhm..." We said in unison.

"You first" I said when I realized that she was about to say something.

"Ah-uhm...about that day..."she bowed at her embarrassment. I know she was going to talk about the day we had an argument.

"Im sorry" we said in unison. Thank God I have said that the exact moment she also said it. Otherwise, I wouldn't have the guts to apologize.

We looked at each other's eyes. I tried not to pull it off but I got embarrassed.

"Can you tell me everything please" I pleaded. Although I'm still not convinced of what she said before - that Sophia is just my illusion. She might have only been affected of the things before that's why she probably said that.

I still have to talk it out with her, I mean with Sophia. But I couldn't have a hold on her. Seriously, right at this time, why wouldn't she contact me at all? Geez! After all that have happened, had she not had any concern at all. I believe everyone must have heard what have happened.

The thought makes me sad and a little hurt honestly.

"Have a seat first. I'll go and get something for us to eat" Psyche snapped me out of my thoughts

As she stood on the chair, she rolled up her hair, put a hairclip on and she walk passed me.

I could smell her gentle scent from behind and my eyes could not help but to follow her. I saw her nape...ugh its flawlessly white. I realized my sudden impulse and pulled back my gaze.

I felt my face blushed, turning pale red at that. I looked at the window pane so that she would not notice it. My heart thumps and I hate it.

When I heard the clashing of the door, I release a deep sigh. I was not actually aware that I was holding my breath a while back.

I looked at Anima on the bed. Pity suddenly gushed from within me. I know that compared to us, she had been the most hurt.

How would she react when she'd learn that Gist has gone? I could only imagine her pain. I took a deep breath and sigh. Last time was a hell of a day.

I decided to get out of the room and go home. I couldn't wait for Psyche anymore. Ugh! Or should I say, I couldn't bear to look at her right now. I am too embarrassed. God, what kind of situation did you gave me? Geez.

While walking aimlessly along the streets, with all the passing crowds, I could not seem to care anything at all. But... their laughters...pinch a sudden pain in me. Im jealous of them. Honestly though, I have told Mr. Carnis that happiness is a choice but I, myself, could not even have it. I smirked at that, ugh! how ironic.

While on my deep thoughts, I caught glance a familiar figure.

Chills crawl into my spine. A sudden excitement bursts into my heart as if I've been waiting for that person to come.

Ugh! I rushed towards her...

But, she's swift as hell.

I looked around hoping to catch her figure, and yelp I found her amidst the crowd busy walking up to their destinations.

"Sophia!" I yelled.

The people around me looked at me with mixtures of astonishment and contempt. Some even reprimand me not to shout because this is a public place.

"Hey boy! Do you think you own this street?" A lady in her mid-thirties hissed.

I couldn't care more of their side comments. I'm desperate to call Sophia's attention.

I continued to yell out and lo, she stopped and turned...but continued to walk afterwards.

I run hastily to cope with her, until we have reached a familiar place which I, could only remember during my childhood.