Pure-sue \ pər-ˈsü , -ˈsyü \

V

V.

I saw Psyche together with Gist, and...wow, Anima was there. Though they were happily conversing, I know something has changed. Anima is no longer as energetic as she was before. She really lost a lot of weight. And as for Psyche, yes she was smiling, but that smile didnt even reach her eyes, I know.

And I feel guilty. Silly, what could guilt do? I whined at myself.

"Oi Lex! How long have you been there?" Gist asked when he had noticed me at the door. Psyche didnt even bother to look at me.

"Oi," I said back, trying not to be awkward.

"How are you Anima?" I asked while putting my bag beside Gist.

Gist was acting all-shy towards Anima.  What does he think he's doing? Wait--- could he be...

...ahh never mind. I hissed. I have a lot to think more than that.

I looked at the direction of Psyche. She remained silent and Gist must have noticed it.

"What's with the mood here?" Gist is now trying to poke at something. At that, I blushed. I could feel my face turning red. Oh God, Gist dont look at me please I plead silently. Im sure he'll make fun of me.

And so I just sobbed my face in my bag. Im acting like a coward. I dont even know if Im acting all cutesy or not.

"Sh-shall we buy snacks?" I heard Gist asked Anima. "Th-that is if it's okay for you" he stuttered. Even without looking, I know Gist is acting shy.

I didnt hear anything after that. So I raised my faced. And guessed what, I met Psyche's eyes. We just had eye contact but my heart skipped. It's beating really really fast. I moved my eyes off of her trying to avoid at whatever that is.

Uh-uhm---about yesterday...I know she's trying to muster everything--

"Uhm let's just pretend that never happened." I hushed. I cut her at that. I know it 's very clichéd a statement but I really dont know what else to say. I just said it but how could I forget it? And I would never admit it. Not in front of her.

"Ah---okay, lets think it like that," she mumbled. She gave me a smile to signal that she was fine but that did not convinced me. I see sorrow in her eyes. You know, we could fake our words but never what is seen in the eyes.

She turned silent again...

"Uh-m...a while ago," this time, I tried to muster my confidence to clear things out but---

"Ahhh, about that. Congrats. Im really happy for the both of you. You must be feeling ecstatic since you're now dating" she forced her smile. I knew it, she tried to act cool at that but com'on she's not convincing enough.

"Look--" I was about to explain, but Gist and Anima came back. Oh geez, what a bad timing, I whined.

"Yow! What's up? We bought snacks for you guys." Gist, as clueless as he is, sat down in between me and Psyche. Anima, then, sat down beside Psyche.

Im happy that Anima could smile again but geez, I couldnt really be fully glad, with the situation right now? Who, in their right mind, could pretend that everything is fine?

"Try this Anima, it's delicious," Gist is really trying hard. They seemed to have cleared the tension between them over that short period of time.

Anima gladly accept what's in the hand of Gist. As for me, I keep glancing at Psyche.

Good...now she's really smiling in amusement. I dont know if she's shipping Gist and Anima silently, but, at least, its nice to see her smile like that.

I sighed. Deeply at that.

I looked at Psyche again, she's trying not to show Anima what she's going through. She might not want to worry her.

And so I rest my case. Maybe its not really good to talk about that. Why would she care anyway? And why do I care this much? Well, we're friends. That must be it. I wouldnt want that to end, I mean, our friendship.

It may be selfish but our friendship is too great to throw away.

I just smiled at the thought then. Fool, why would you worry so much? You just have to treasure your friendship no matter what. I said to myself.

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Yeah that was hell of a scene. So much awkwardness that Im cringing. Look, for the shippers, Im trying to ship Anima and Gist. I find them cute together, hope you too. Anyway, wait for the next chapter. See yah.