Pure-sue \ pər-ˈsü , -ˈsyü \

IV

IV.

As expected, I got bags under my eyes - too big and too dark at that. Ice cubes arent really useful. The heck with me, why would it get down my system, I mean, the thing that have happened yesterday.

So basically I was dragging myself to go to school hoping to not see Psyche. I wouldn't want to face her, beside I dont know what will I say. It will surely be awkward for the both of us, or maybe just for me?

Ahh never mind, come what may. I told myself trying to cheer myself up.

"Hi" someone greeted me from behind.

"You seem to have forgotten me lately," the person muttered while pouting.

"Sophia? I'm sorry, there are just a lot of things happening to me lately." That seems to be a valid excuse but why am I explaining?

Yeah I like her...I paused, and my mind suddenly buffers. Nah...w-wa-wait, what have I just said? Who likes who? Me? Likes Sophia? What? Since when did I admit that? Oh please spare me, its just early in the morning.

Geez, when did my life became so complicated as this? I was right before, that feelings bring confusion and make people stupid. God, did I ever offend you in anyway?

"No, its okay. I was just kidding" she chuckled. "I saw you from the back and you seemed pretty down and confused. Is everything alright?" She asked.

I appreciate her asking but I could not let her know what happened yesterday. Never! I dont know what she'll think of me once it got out. 

Wow! Did I just thought of that? What a jerk. Lex you should just let yourself be drowned instead. You are already becoming unreasonable - illogical at that. I said to myself.

"You dont have to worry about what I'll think" she said. Often times, people's feelings are too obvious that even if they hide it, their self and their actions betray them. If you would want to know a person, get to their truest emotion, there lies their true and vulnerable self." She muttered.

I dont know where she's getting at but one thing I was confused is why could she read what I'm thinking. Geez, here comes another thing I have to be concerned about. Honestly, this has been one of my major concerns before, that, how on earth does Sophia able to think what I'm thinking. It's too much of a coincidence.

Ugh, regardless, its already too much. So I gave her a weak smile.

She looked down...

...and I felt guilty.

"Le-lets go out" I mustered some confidence but it still turns  out awkward. "I mean, let's date." I scratched the back of my head. I got shy...but there's no turning back.

Sophia has obviously got shocked.

"Uhm...look, whenever I'm with you I always find myself somewhat weird. I'm always dumbfounded by your presence. So I guess, I like you." I mumbled. That almost got out spontaneously. I didnt even have to breathe to finish.

It might be a good thing that I said that. I may have a clear answer on things, on what I'm feeling towards her particulary. And maybe I'd never get swayed by any circumstances again - I mean between me and Psyche.

While immersed in my thoughts, Sophia wrapped her arms around my neck. Stunned at that, I almost push her. But, again, my arms and feet didnt seem to heard my whining. Yet, however intimate, it does not have the same intensity as yesterday. Am I comparing?

Then...

"Yes!" Sophia excitedly exclaimed. Her eyes were the same as Psyche's yesterday. What am I doing? Why am I comparing them?

I kept silent, unable to process the whole thing. I dont know if I'll be happy with this. To be honest, I have not felt anything at all. Was that it? Was this the same feeling others have felt when they're inlove? Nothing extraordinary.

I know! I'm a jerk right now. You dont have to pound that hard on me. I dont know anything about this to begin with. Oh com'on, excuses. Dont give me that lame. I must be crazy, right now I am contradicting my own self.

"Lex?" Sophia snapped me back to my senses. Maybe she's waiting for my response, or maybe a reaction from her yes.

I felt sorry about that.

Her arms are still around me. Wait---did we stay like this for a while? I asked myself. I looked at the people passing by, they seem pretty normal. They dont even give us much of attention, so I guess its not big a deal.

"Lex?" This time, it didnt come from her, so I looked at where the voice is coming.

Shocked when...

"Ps-Psy-che? I stuttered. Oh God, why now? I grinned.

"Ar-are you okay?" She mumbled.

"Ahh---yeah" I huffed. This is awkward. This is really awkward!

Ah by the way, Sophia---I paused, I dont know if have to say it but...

"Sophia?--" she was waiting for me to continue it.

"Uhm, we decided to date" I bluntly said. Never mind, I just have to tell this.

She was obviously shocked. Her eyes...her eyes, I dont know how to describe them, but...sadness...her eyes became sad.

"Ahh good for the both of you. Congrats." Her voiced nearly cracked. I sensed a little pain as she said that.

"By the way, I have to go," she muttered and completely walked pass us.

Part of me wanted to go after her. But I know its inappropriate. Why would I? So I just watched her back

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This is hard. I could hardly breathe while I was writing this. Im feeling sad so this part may have been affected. Anyway, still I was able to get through. Still I wanted you to enjoy😅😅