My life's a disaster .....or it's been so since I've met this boy .He has ruined everything since he came . I regret seeing him the first time ........but no he's the one . I love him so very much. And he..........he fucking considers me a toy to play with and throw it away ..... when you've had enough enjoyment. I feel grateful as it was only a kiss that happened..........and nothing more than that .......deep down I know that kiss will always be the most special and the worst . He ruined my first kiss ,my first love............maybe he knew I loved him intensely and he ........that asshole used my feelings to get hold of me for a one night stand. Oh my god .......Jesus why didn't I understand ............. I'm so dumb ...but if I'll never be able to be his' so I can always remember this one kiss.....
All of a sudden I get startled by door clicking and see Cole standing in the doorway .......I run out of that fucking class...never stopping to look back at once or glancing at my ...........Emir for one last time .....
All these thoughts are running like train in my bitchy subconscious and she must be very happy as this was what she wanted all of the time....... She's showcasing her moves ....moves I Don't fucking wish to talk about them .
I run through the sidewalk crying and reach my house . The house seems so small .......it was before also but now it looks so tiny. I wanna be buried right now here ...............Jesus he used my love to get me.......how the fuck could he even think of me like that ...........I feel disgusted to be loving this man who used me like a damn towel and thought of me like every other girl he's slept with.
For two days at university I don't see him .......or it's possible he's not there at all .......... all this pain will be vanished soon if I don't see him often.
Will it ??
Third day my father comes to the university to pick me up as I got stuck in work ....got late ......
I'm wearing a short dress............ very much short according to my family and my father's staring wide-eyed at me not even blinking once .Holy pig .
I run away to the restroom, wear my jacket and jeans and join him back ..... He's furious turning red from anger or....... embarrassment...I curse myself for not informing them I'll be late ..........Fuck . Holy fuck ..... what'll happen next will be just because of me .
Will they terminate me from going to the university..........no no.......I sure as hell never ever want that ..... what'll be the consequences. Jesus help me ......... My DREAMS......oh shit.
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Dreams
Fanfic" Dreams are not those which you see while sleeping Dreams are those which don't let you sleep " This is very rightly said by APJ Abdul Kalam . Girls live in dreams sometimes So this is an attempt to bring to you something you can surely relate...
