"Life will never be the same after your first love." I recall this line from AFTER.
It's true ..... absolutely true . Does this work the same way for all or its me only. Does everybody get so much intimidated and blown away by the one they are in love with or mine is a special one. My first kiss ..........very first kiss ...... I'm overwhelmed .
"What?"he asks ...... me .I raise my eyebraws and stare at him wide-eyed. What the fuck does he even mean by this.He kissed me first...... I'm not complaining or anything as I liked.......no loved it but how dare he ask me what.
" Why didn't you stop me ?!" He shrugs and sighs running his hands in his hair.
" Because I didn't wanted to.........um....... you made the first move."
" I fucking know it. Don't you tell me my moves. You were not less."
I am flushed and embarrassed . How has he changed his mood so ..........fast and ths easily .How can he?? Fucking asshole.
Before I know tears have started rolling down my cheeks and I'm crying as if he's rejected me.............I think he has.Yes he really did reject me just a moment before.The pain has hit me like someone's stabbed me right in my heart......deep inside.
He fucking kissed me sometime back .............now he's regretting it.Nothing has ever .....ever hurt like this .
Love is confusing ......... it's so beautiful and yet so damn painful. It's fucked up big time .
If this damn door wasn't locked I'd run out of here but of course...........its my ......my fucking life we're talking about so how can anything be not complicated and fucked up. Fuck my life......its full of fuckedupness .......... I'm so much hurt that I've my own dictionary of unparliamentary words from now on..... fuckedupness............. it's not that bad though or Is it??
I take a deep breath , wipe my tears from the back of my hand and turn my self away ....... forcefully . I go and sit at one of the desks .........wondering why did this happen to me .........my very first love just denied me ..........why .??? Is something wrong with me ........no he is wrong here .How could he fucking do this to me??
His voice echoes in my head and I sob without a single sound ......this time he never came to console me .......to brush off my tears and more than that my fear of losing him.........No I don't want this . But I don't want to be insulted either ................ I'm not sure what I want for now so I drop it.
After a while my head feels so heavy......... I drift off to sleep.
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Dreams
Fanfic" Dreams are not those which you see while sleeping Dreams are those which don't let you sleep " This is very rightly said by APJ Abdul Kalam . Girls live in dreams sometimes So this is an attempt to bring to you something you can surely relate...
