The store is full of people , I manage to buy a pack of tampons and a new leggings .
I'm home in thirty minutes . I walk straight to my room , close the door , lay on the bed and sob . Why Emir betrays me everytime?Why ?
Today again it's all messed up because of Emir . Why can't he be nice to me ? But nice is just too boring for him , he has to be cruel and malicious all the time . He must had to do so much planning to find new ways to piss me off .
From this day , I promise myself not to look back and forget him ,just everything about him, the way his lips move when he talks and the way his tongue moves in my mouth while kissing , the way he laughs , the way he glares at me , the way he was with that bitch Selana. Why the hell am I remembering things with him ?! I have to forget him . I repeat this line ten times in my head .
I already had an idea Selana liked him but he never gave her a chance and now he did this purposely to piss me . I've known him this much . If he had any interests in her , he'd be dating her now as they're childhood buddies . The three of them are childhood friends and I've seen love in Cole's eyes for Selana . The way he looks at her only ,says it all . Emir never looked at me like that and now I'll not give him a chance to do so . He has played enough with my feelings ,not anymore .
I drift off to sleep, musing about all this .
I'm at the shopping mall buying a wedding dress . . . .with Emir . He picks a beige color gown and shows it to me with dancing eyes .
I don't like it and shake my head , he takes my hand and we look around the mall for a better dress.
A little while later, I find a white dress , it has glitter sparkled all over the neckline which makes it just the dress for me . I'm in love with it at the first sight . I walk up to the trial room .
I wake up covered in sweat, panting badly all the more shocked. Why'd I have a dream of selecting a wedding dress for me and with that fool !? I'm utterly exhausted by this dream or should I say the nightmare . I hate marriage from the deepest core of my heart . I despise it so fucking much .
I try my best to forget about my worst dream but I fail . I'm not able to get both of them out of my mind , Emir and that bloody dream .
Its four in the morning and I'm not able to sleep anymore .
Henceforth I decide to catch up on my studies . I haven't studied properly since I've met him because he never lets me , I've only one thing going on in my mind always and that's obviously him . He's made me a mess , a loser, a hater and a liar.
Now I can't even look into the mirror at myself , it feels as if I'm looking at someone I don't know ,it feels as if the person behind the image is laughing at me and calling me names ,it feels like I'm changed wholly and I'm liking this alteration but the lies ; they're making me hate myself day by day . I feel heavy twenty-four hours.
As now I'm not gonna talk to Emir , I think I don't have to worry about the lies . Jess , I haven't told the truth to her also and fuck , what about Shawn ? What am I supposed to tell him about me !?
The clothes, yes they're the main problem . I wear Helly's dresses that's why all of them have the idea that I'm rich . But I can't go wearing those odd tees to the university .
Okay let's just not think about all this bullshit for now .
I've to study for now .
I've been endeavouring to study for half an hour but I'm not able to make it . So , I decide on reading AFTER . I find the book on my shelf and start reading the portions I particularly love. Like their first kiss, the first time they made love , the lake scene and they are infinite . This is the Best book ever .
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Dreams
Fanfiction" Dreams are not those which you see while sleeping Dreams are those which don't let you sleep " This is very rightly said by APJ Abdul Kalam . Girls live in dreams sometimes So this is an attempt to bring to you something you can surely relate...
