I inhale deeply after getting out of that bloody classroom with Emir . So much has happened during this one month , we met ,in the starting we fought like enemies but I was always attracted by his grace and face , then I thought I love him ,he kept hurting me and now he's irritating me by his sexiness . I'll not be able to stay away from him if he keeps doing this.
My head is spinning . I am not able to decide what I have to do . Should I stay away or get close to him ? If I go , love will lose and i love LOVE so much . After reading all those romance novels , I've gone crazy for love . They have given me the perception that whatever shit happens in the story , in the end it is 'happily ever after' . If I choose the first option maybe everything will get over and I could move on in my life .
Well , do I really love him ? I don't know. He is my first kiss . But everytime we kiss , I feel that electricity running throughout my body and there's a pull that attracts my body to his . This is why I am not able to identify my feelings for him , is it just hormonal attraction or is it true love ? Jesus Christ help me .
Also whenever he tells me that he can't get me out of his head, I want him in my life even more badly . Emir is like a riddle which is so much difficult to solve. I'm not able to understand him, his actions, his words . One day he speaks something and the next day his words make me like him more . I am a mess right now . After him , I am a mess for my entire life .
The classes go pretty well , I'm sitting on the university's park bench and noticing people around the canteen. Girls in designer dresses with high heels stomping on the tile covered floor while going hand in hand with the boys . I am not allowed to do that .
On the other hand, you go and kiss a boy three times in a month . Is this allowed ? My bitchy subconscious barks . She always has something to say . Bitch !
A tall boy comes towards me , hands in his pocket , smiling . I try recalling his features , oh it is Shawn . He is such a nice guy unlike Emir . I wish I'd liked him rather than that boy who gets on my nerves every day . But life is not easy and especially if we're talking of mine, it cannot be . God has set adventures for me everyday.
Shawn comes and sits besides me .
" Hey ! Ashley . . . .you seem out of any mess today . " He smiles and I observe him . He is so cute and good looking , the way he smiles , it is so alluring and peaceful . Despite all the chaos going on in my life , I smile back.
" Yeah , for once, no problem. Just to let you know, I'm like a magnet to problems. " I tell him.
He laughs . " I can live with it ."
" You'll have to . " I say and he shrugs shyly .
He has made my mood so light .
" Wanna listen to some music? " He asks and I nod .
We put one earphone piece each and I'm lost in music . Music cures me . I feel my worries flying high .Suddenly the music stops alongside I experience a pull , of that earphone . My eyes flash open and I'm stunned and surprised and frustrated and fuming .
Who else could it be ? Of course it is him . Emir .Why the hell he can't let me live in peace ? He has problems with every other thing I do .
" What the hell do you think you're doing ? " He shouts at me .
The whole campus is gawking at us . And Shawn has his jaw clenched and he's glaring at Emir with red eyes .
I don't want both of them knocking each other .
I get up, ignore him and start walking away .
A hand grabs my wrist , so tight that it aches . I very well know it is Emir . I try twisting my wrist but no damn luck . I don't want any drama right now, right here in front of everyone . Can someone please come and take me away to the sky or either bury me to the ground ?
He turns me, so that we are face to face and pulls me closer , our lips are so close that if another action happens , we'd kissing . . . . .in the university park . No no no this shouldn't happen .
" Emir ,please. . . . leave me ." I beg , trying to push him away .
He doesn't even bulge a little .
His lips are inches from mine and I'm aware I'm breathing way too hard . He removes his hand from my wrist to put it on the small of my back while his other hand moves up to my cheekbone and then he gently tucks my hair behind my ear . I can genuinely hear
his pulse as our lips meet —and the fire crackles under my skin.
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Fiksi Penggemar" Dreams are not those which you see while sleeping Dreams are those which don't let you sleep " This is very rightly said by APJ Abdul Kalam . Girls live in dreams sometimes So this is an attempt to bring to you something you can surely relate...
