Dreams

Chapter Twenty- one

I make my way to the canteen and caught sight of Emir . I'm left stunned  and also angry seeing the view in front of me . What the actual fuck !?

He doesn't seem angry besides he's chilling out with Selana , she's  fawning all over him . . . .  his hands are on her back likewise she's looking jovial . Apart from all this , they are having a soft-drink , giggling and  fucking enjoying themselves . . . . . having a great time. . . . .with each other .
Why ?! Why me always !? God why the hell can my life be normal !? Why it has to be so much happening and a bad happening?
Actually it's all because of him . It's somewhat   similar to Tessa from AFTER . I recall the line ,  my life was so simple and decided before him and now after him . . . . .its just after . But in my case its not just after it's a living hell . . . .watching him with someone else when I love him . Maybe he's doing this on purpose to make me desirous. No matter what he can't play with my emotions like this . I've not given him this right .

Again he used me , I always knew we can't be together, he just wishes a one night stand like the guy he is but I'm a fool for letting him do this to me , for dreaming endless things that'll not be reality ever . I'm so naïve , I let him in my life, my dreams further  he played with me, my feelings as well as my dreams .
You did this to yourself , Ashley , My subconscious snaps at me . She's absolutely right . I fucking did this to myself .
Not anymore , this was the last foolishness,  from now on I'll not let him ruin me ,he can't do this to me everytime . I need to control my feelings for him, the problem is I know full well I can't because love has no bounds , my heart didn't ask my permission before going to him on top of that I never knew I'd love  someone so much that I'd forget everything for him ,even my self-respect . Yes I came back to him , forgave him after whatever silly things he did and said to me . It is my fault altogether .

I'm gald though as I didn't cross my limits last night ,if we'd done more than kissing I'd never be able to forgive myself.

But I need to give him a comeback for what he's done to me . As I'm going to shower him with my love   , I feel that familiar ache in my stomach .  Damn not now . I don't have a tampon right now on top of that I'm wearing white pants and the top is  also short . Oh what will I do now . I rush to the washroom and invest whether my jeans are clear or stained already . They're stained . I'm gone . Fuck this is awkward . How will I get abode ?!

No No No this isn't going to happen. Also I can't tie the jacket around my waist as today I forgot to bring it . I'll be damn embarassed if someone spots it also I can't stop it , I need a tampon to do so .
I can't sit in this washroom all day , its hygienic but sitting here and waiting until everyone goes is obviously a bad idea . . . . . actually the worst idea right now. I've to get out of here .
Jess is also gone home already . I don't know anyone else here. Should I ask some other girl or just go find a taxi and go home as fast as possible?
I choose the second option .
At last I gather the courage and move out of the washroom . I try hiding the stain with the help of my handbag but it's visible .
I take large strides towards the exit gate but I feel a hand on my shoulder . I assume it must be Emir . . . .when I turn it's a tall guy with blonde hair . He's hot but not more than Emir . Blue small eyes, a smiling face . . . . I scan him carefully . Wait why is he smiling ?!
" Hey . . . . . . don't be surprised . I know what you're going through.Take this jacket and you can just . . . .um . . . .tie it around your waist. " He offers and hands me  his jacket.
I'm seriously taken aback by this . He's such a sweetheart unlike the one I love . I do as he said and smile at him gleefully.
" Thank you . Thank you so much. You've no idea how much you've helped me . " I announce still showing my teeth .
" Its allright . I understand . By the way , I'm Shawn . " He introduces himself  next extends his hand to shake .
I shake hands with him as well introduce myself . " I've got a new friend today just because of all this." I call and I hear him chuckle .
" Sorry but now I'll  have to take a leave ." I tell him.
" Yeah of course . See you." He replies with a lovely smile on his face .
He offers me a lift but I deny . I know he's warm and pleasant but I can't just go home with a new boy every day. Not with Emir from today , I'm sure .
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