Dreams

Chapter Seventeen

I reach home and on the way my mind is whirling with billion questions ..... Firstly why has Emir given my phone number to Cole.! He could've offered me to come to the party himself or maybe he is  pissed at me ? 
But Miss Ashley  Rose how  the hell can you consider  the invitation first of all ? My subconscious glares at me with her eyebrows twitched . Yeah she's right for the first time in my life . I've got so  great parents that they'll never let me go . You know they love me so fucking much that in this age also they'll have me sleep with them so that i don't run away  .  They  don't do so but they sure can .

But I really want to go. I wanna see Emir and maybe you know apologize ....no no no no . Don't let him break you this time Ashley .
No matter what I'll go .  I'll not talk to him and ignore him . Yeah good idea . I wanna know why all those rich ones love parties , what do they do in those  parties . What if Emir is with any other girl ? I'll not able to tolerate that . But we'll see he mentioned he keeps thinking about me  god knows  maybe he lied to me.
He's the not the only one lying though. My bitchy subconscious makes a cute face and  stares at me .

The last and the most important question how the fuck will I go ?
A girl can sneak out  at night when everyone's crashed in bed....right or she can be kidnapped just for a night with no ransom calls . Oh there are so many possibilities. You're  awesome at planning plotting Ashley.

I wait patiently till  midnight , prepare my bag meanwhile and then the awaited time comes . I very carefully open my room's door , glance around the small hall and yes its clear . Oh thank Jesus. I pick  up my boots , one more door and then I'm free and safe but only for one night .

Finally I'm at my destination ...... mission accomplished . The club is packed .......no place to put  a toe also. Loud music is making my heart beat so faster. I place my hands over my ears and try to find Cole or maybe Emir . But I fail.
I push my way through the drunken boys and girls dancing like they're in a private space. They are fucking grinding themselves against each other . If my parents would come here they'd lost it like big time . What would happen if they come to know about me being here in such a place ? I don't want to think this .They'd kill me literally kill me . I know this is so much wrong . . . . .lying , hiding things from them but if they hadn't put so many restrictions on me , if they would've allowed me to live my life the way I wanted to. . . . . . this never would've happened . Actually its a child's psychology we always do those things which elders deny us or stop us from doing . We get a unique thrill out of it.
And of course i wanna see him ....when it comes to  Emir my brain doesn't see the difference between right and wrong. This is my problem and I have no enthusiasm to alter this because I love him . I'll always love him .Always.

I feel so out here . . . .  so distant and different from everybody . Actually I am. That's the reality.

I spot Cole after roaming around for ten minutes. And Emir's not to be seen anywhere . I rush towards Cole , he greets me with a hug and I'm a little taken aback by his unrequired show of affection. But I do hug him back .
" I've been looking for you." I say.
" I didn't expect you to come . You surprised me ." He smirks.
I give him a shy smile while my mind is  already occupied with Emir . Where the hell is he ? Should I ask Cole ? Um.........but what'll he think of me .
" Come ."  He interrupts me by saying and takes my hand , leading the way . I feel awkard as hell. Why is he acting so weird like we've known each other since childhood . We just met  two weeks ago. Geez what's going on ?
" Where are we going?" I ask curiously.
" I'm not gonna kidnap you. Don't worry. " He jokes but I'm having wrong intuitions. I'm worried what if he kidnaps me . . . . No he'll not .Yeah he is Emir's friend .He can't kidnap me . Emir will save me even if he does . Will he ?

We come upstairs , he escorts me in a room and he closes the door behind him . When  I turn back I'm stunned .....Emir is there laying back on the bed with his arms behind his head. His muscles oh ..... I never noticed them . He has such a wonderful physique one to be worshipped .......I adore him for minutes and before I can stop myself my mouth spits out . " Do you workout? You've such a great body. "
Oh fuck . What did I say ? Damn .
" Just .......forget what I  just said. " I fumble.
I turn back to leave and Cole.... where is he ? He was here and now when did he go ? Why didn't I realise it?
Because dear Ashley you were so busy staring him . My inner goddess answers . She's right . I was .
I head to the door wondering why isn't he following or stopping me . He doesn't do this and it's not the first time I'm walking away.
I pull amd pull the door continuously but it's not ready to open.
Oh no . . . . Not again ......not with him again . . . . . . Jesus why the hell  am I always stuck with him in a room . I'm reminded of the song of Stuck with you . I love that song. I wish we both could run our mouths and he"ll drive me insane . As always daydreaming or midnight dreaming Miss Ashley . Nothing like that is going to happen .Control your fantasies .
" Door is stuck . Help me . " I whisper.
" I know. It's locked ."
"What?! But why? I want to get out . Open it ."
" I won't , want to sort this mess. We"ll talk. "
" Sort out what? Is this a way to sort things or make them even more complicated?What do you think of yourself ? You can't just make me do whatever you want . Okay . Open this damn door or else I'll shout and you'll be in trouble. I'm sure you wouldn't want that." I'm so angry at him . Who the hell is he? How cannot come and go whenever he wishes . He could've stopped me from going that day itself ? But he didn't and now I'm in no humor at present to enetertain him any more. I'm done with this back and forth .
" Go ahead . Shout ."
Geez this boy has no fear . He's so carefree . . . .oh i wish my life to be like that .
" You know what . . . . . I'll not do so . You think you can boss me around but no you're in a big bubble of misunderstanding . You want to talk . Keep talking to yourself and these  fucking walls . I won't speak a damn word ." I try keeping my calm but I fail miserably. I start crying . . . .when I'm angry I cry it out . I know its weird but that's the way I am .
" Don't be ridiculous . You know we can talk and just sort everything . " I look away and go sit on the bed .
" Okay as you wish don't say anything . Be stubborn . I'll not open this door till you talk." Oh no what is he saying . How will I get home ? Why did I choose to come to this damned party in the first place ?! And that fucking Cole, he's such a dick he fucking tricked me into this . God damn him .
Emir comes and sits beside me . I stand up and move to the window. I don't wanna see him especially after this . I'm glad he wants to talk but it's late . I love him and I'll always love only him but we can't be together never. It's not possible . Our worlds are so different. . . . . . . there's no future . One day he'll come to know about my reality and then he'll leave me alone . I'll not  be able to take it . So its better if we  keep a distance from now only . I'll have to let him go . Yes I don't deserve him . He's a prince and I'm a doorman's daughter .

" You're looking  beautiful . " He tries distracting me but I stand on my words. Really am I looking beautiful ? I'm wearing a purplish-blue dress,starting from the neckbone . . . . like with no straps and comes down my thighs . . . It is a short one . Helly's stepmother bought it for her , she didn't  like it so she gave it to me . Its a nice dress though . I love it.
" Are you seriously not going to speak ?How can you give me this attitude after what you did that day . I've been trying hard to get to you and now when I did succeed. . .  you. . . . . . Please talk to me ? I've never said please to anyone so respect this please and don't let it go waste. Please." He pleads .
" Ash this is  not fair at all " I hear his footsteps towards me . No if he looks at me and says something I'll not  be able to keep my mouth shut.
My inner goddess is dancing like she has found a treasure . He called you Ash . . . . . . . he says my name like I've never heard before. It feels like heaven when I hear him say my name.
Suddenly I feel a hand on my waist , he pulls me to him, my back pressing to his front. My breathing is altered , goosebumps raise on my hands and skin and my heart is in my throat. I try freeing myself but no luck ,his grip is so much tight . He places his chin on my neck ,inhales deeply and kisses me  . Oh that familiar burn  and electricity runs throughout my whole body and I've lost every bit of control I had a few minutes back . I can feel his breath across my neck and then he turns me around , cups my face with both of his hands and comes closer . . .  so much close that our lips are touching . I think he's going to kiss me but he doesn't instead he looks me in my eyes and whispers ," Please talk to me . " I nod and he's looking bewildered .
" What ?! You're ready to talk ." He says.
" Yep. Do I have any other option ? " I ask raising my eyebrows. He moves away and I whimper for the loss of contact. He takes my hand and leads me to the bed. " Sit ." I obey and he sits besides me .
" Okay " He takes a deep breath and sounds nervous. Wow Emir nervous . " So I'm really very sorry for everything stupid I did to you . I know I'm such an idiot . But that day when we kissed . . . . .I couldn't stop myself and it just happened . You were looking so cute and innocent while crying . After that kiss I wasn't able to get you out of my mind . I know you don't believe me but it's true . That day when I saw you with that prick whom you call your boyfriend, I was pissed . . .  . I thought that you  also must be thinking of me but . . . . In one goddamned week you made a boyfriend who fucking drops you to university .  Then you said we're  not meant to be . Why ? Tell me. Now. " He lets out a sigh after finshing his long speech .
He remembers everything. . . . .  I'm so glad to hear him say all these things . He has said everything I wanted to hear . But what about me ? I have no gutts to tell him who am I . He'll never want us to be if he knew .  But I love him . All these things can be taken care of later and if he truly loves me he'll not leave me. I'll listen to my heart which says  Go to Emir.  Don't leave this golden opportunity now . Just go .
" He wasn't my boyfriend and I think of you now also . . . . .every second. " I confess looking him in his eyes.
" Really !? I also can't get you out of my head . Why are we doing this to ourselves then ? Why can't we be together?" He asks .
"Why do you want to be together ? " I choose to tease him for sometime.
" I don't know . . . . . . umm I mean we like each other . So why not ? "
" Just like ?." I tilt my head sideways and shrug my shoulders .
" Yeah that's how it starts . Right ?  We like someone , then spend time with them , get to know them better and see if we are. . . .  you know meant to be or not." He smiles and I join too.
" Oh that's how it goes . "
" Yeah it's strange . Isn't it?" He smirks .
" Very"
He moves closer towards me and keeps his hand on mine . I smile up at him . " I love  your smile." He says .
" Same."
He smiles and puts his hand on the small of my back and pulls me onto his lap.
" Is this how we spend time and get to know each other.? " I ask with a smile on my face.
" I think so ." I sit astride him.
His hand moves from my back to my neck and the other one is on my thigh .  His dark green eyes looking into mine . He looks down at my lips and I stare at his and in another second I  feel  his lips on mine. He crashes my lips against his catching me totally off guard .

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