Dreams

Chapter Twenty-six

Emir lunges at me ,pushing me against one of the walls of the classroom and he's pinning me to the wall using his hips. Holy fuck . His hand grabs my hair and  yanks down , bringing my face up and his lips are on mine . It's only just not painful . I moan into his mouth giving his tongue an opening . He takes full advantage , his tongue expertly exploring my mouth . He brings his hand up to grasp my chin and holds me in place . I am confused and helpless. Should I do this or not ? I want to . I  need to stop overthinking things and do what I want .  Yes this is not wrong at all or is it? As I'm busy  overthinking, my tongue takes the lead ,it  tentatively strokes his and joins his in a slow erotic dance that's all about touch and sensations . I don't have any interests in sropping my tongue . It's doing a brilliant job . . . . .umm that's what I think . He mobes down to my neck and plants small and wet kisses there.
" You. Are. So. Sweet." He says in between kisses .
My face held , his hips restraining me . . . I feel his erection against my stomach . Oh my . . . . He is hard . . . .hard for me .Greek God , Mr. Emir Daniels wants me . 
I push him away before anything else happens and either one of us regrets that.

" What  do you  think you're doing ? " I shout .
" I was having such a great time . You ruined it . " He smirks .
"Don't play smart with me , Emir."
" I'm not . I don't see anything wrong in kissing my girlfriend ."
" Girlfriend . I . Am. Not . Your. Girlfriend . "
" When did this happen? I wasn't informed we're breaking up . What we had was mutual . So no way you're gonna take all  decisions on your own.  You. Are. My . Girlfriend ."
I decide to ignore him as he is stubborn and try to open the door . If this time he tricks me like before , locking us in a room to sort it out,  I don't know what I'd do . I'll lose it .But it seems as if he hasn't done that so I head out of this room and this mess in my life called Emir Daniels.
I feel a hand on my wrist and I instantly know whose it is.
" What do you want now ? Emir I am fed up , one day you are something like  so sweet and nice to me , and the other day you're completely different ,acting like an ass. I can't keep up with you now . I don't have any more patience for you and your sick dramas . My heart is broken in the finest and smalllest pieces possible. There's nothong left to ruin more of me . I am actually done. " I sob and he pulls me to his chest.
I try to be free of his grip but he isn't taking it .
" Please ,let me go Emir ."
" I can't .Why should I?" He asks .
Why he can't ? My subconscious thinks but the answer I give is not the right one at all.
Does he love me ? I can't stop musing about this. No he doesn't . If he did he never would've done those things in the past . Does love hurt so much ?

I am not even sure of my love for him , it is the age ,it can be attraction also . I don't know it is a big mess whatever it is and there's no way to get out of it . But if I want his good , I have to stay away , far away from him .

Right now I'm feeling the best . Laying on his chest is the best feeling ever . I wish it could be just like this forever but this is real life not a fucking fairytale. No happily ever after for me .

" You don't know what you're saying and you never mean it . " I acknowledge.
Yeah that's true . He says things like  this so that the next time he does something wrong , I'd be broken more than the previous time .

" I do . I really do mean it. I've known this since the day I met you . I wanted to run away because I always knew I'm not the one for you . . . . . .  But I can't run away now and I don't want to . Trust me . "  He excepts at last .

His eyes speak the purest language right now .  I've read it somewhere that when you're in love your eyes speak the purest language . You  have read it okay so don't get excited already . My subconscious yells .

He continues. " I've never craved attention until I tasted yours. I can't wrap my mind around what you're doing to me . It's so irritating , I've never felt like this before . Every Saturday night, a new girl just for a week  and then it was over. With you , it is so weird . I am not able to get you out of my head . I  am asking for  just one chance . Just one ."

" You only mentioned the reason for us not to be together Emir . You are not the man for me and let me tell you I am definitely not the one meant for you . We only hurt each other, fight, make each other cry and yeah if one of us pisses the other  , we take revenges of that . If I refuse your lift ,you make me jealous. I never had that illusion of a friendship or relationship or whatever the hell it is , actually it was." I elaborate and his eyes are red , with anger or what . I have no idea .

" You're the one for me . Relationship is all about  hurting ,fighting and  then sorting out that  shit ." He laughs.
" You can't be serious. What the hell is so amusing ?"  I stare at him .

" You read those fairytales right ? Where it's like 'happily ever after'  ." He air qoutes the last three  words and I am smiling inside. How does he know ?
Do we have a transmission system going on inside us ? This is hilarious though like really how can he know what I have been thinking .
Uff this is weird .
" You know I'm right . " He smirks while I'm busy in my own world.

" Um . . . .  Did we come here to discuss fairytales ? "

" Hmm so now you're changing the topic ."

" You know what, you must be having spare time but i have work to do. So I'll take a leave while you keep talking to yourself or these walls. "

"Goodbye . Emir ." I say as seductively as I can manage but I fail miserably .

"Bye . Ash ." He says it  casually and so normal but I feel it down there .
" See you soon . " He adds .

How can he do this? Looking so sexy without even trying to do anything .
I can't be in this room for another damn second or else I will not be able to stand on my words .  I need to be  out of Emir's tempting trap .

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