Oh no not after all these tiring ass days of trying to forget him ....he cannot be here hoding my hand as well as my gaze in his green eyes as I endeavour to search them for ..... What love no freakin way .... there's only anger but for what possible reason I can't wrap my head around it.
I free my hand and mostly my heart spinning to get burst from him as he frowns........and I smirk inside of me.
" Who was he??!" He asks . Is he fucking kidding me ....after that day he has the gutts to first of all drag me to a silent lobby and then enquire about me...... He is impossible but a heartbreaking and a heartwarming sight at the same time . I've got this bad ....no worst .
I don't understand what to do so I started laughing like seroiusly laughing like a fool ...a fool for this man .
" What the fuck is so amusing?" He is caught off guard and searches my face like an owl eyes open wide .
" Oh as if you don't know ....Mr.Emir Daniels. Do you expect me to give you an answer or like anything ...after that day.Do you?" My tone is clipped as I'm boiling from days of rage and disgust for this man who ruined my first kiss. ......... And then my first love. Flashbacks of that so much intense and pants wetting kiss plays in my subconscious and she's grinning like an idiot. She's a total nerd.....always defying and contradicting my feelings and emotions .
" Look , I apologize for that day .Now can you please enlighten me of that guy....Is he your boyfriend?" He is weighing his words carefully and thinking for once before uttering some shit . Good that's a progress I see......
My heart is in his hands it seems he's playing soccer with it ... tossing and kicking it all around the place to a point until he breaks it again . Boyfriend ......oh I'm sure he doesn't want to get enlightenment of Dave's relation to me or maybe he should get one .......oh yes . Two can obviously play a game ...but why'd he be worried . He seemed inquisitive ....oh yeah does he likes me ..... I hang up to this possibility and I'm so tepted to play with his feelings like he did.
He ony volunteered to know but I'll introduce him as my boyfriend as engagement it has time right .............. this word engagement i fucking hate it and secretly pray that this word gets banned or demolished from the dictionary and I feel the urge to kill the one who fucking discovered it ...and the ideas of marriages and engagements ......... Marriage, in my opinion, is an imprisonment but there's a difference you fucking jump into it willingly unlike jail sentence . I'm against it so much so that I'll never do it ...I despise it with all my hate embed together. What the fuck do you even get out of it ........a husband who can leave you whenever something goes wrong , a second family which is nice only half of the times ,you know, luck by chance , your dreams and hopes fucking crushed in a thresher and lastly endless list of responsibilities to be taken care of. I dismiss my philosophy of marriages and come back to reality.
This is gonna be so interesting .My subconscious is doing her dance moves swiftly moving around .
" Yup he is . Anything else you'd wish to get enlightened about." I say hiding my amusement and one of the many lies but this is not a big one .
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Dreams
Fanfiction" Dreams are not those which you see while sleeping Dreams are those which don't let you sleep " This is very rightly said by APJ Abdul Kalam . Girls live in dreams sometimes So this is an attempt to bring to you something you can surely relate...
