Oh this feeling , I've been craving this since the first time we kissed. It seems as if I'm sitting on fire , it is just so pleasurable, full of energy and I'm out of my senses . The way his dark green eyes look at me alone sends shivers down my spine and it feels so so . . . good . I've never felt like this before. . . . he's the only one who can make me feel this way . . . . so delighted .
He rolls me over on the mattress such that he's on top of me. . . . never breaking our kiss , his hands on either sides of my face , his front pressing to mine . . . . in a push- up position . I bury my hands in his hair and try concentrating on his tongue pushing in my mouth . Our tongues roll against each others' and I moan . He pulls away and I whimper but in no time he's placing small kisses on my jawline upto my ear. . .he tugs at the spot down my ear with his teeth . Oh it feels heavenly and I groan and moan at the same time . He repeats this and I tug at the mattress . I can explode just from this . He's so skilled . . . . His tongue , his teeth ,his mouth . . . .he makes me lose my mind . His skilled mouth moves to my neck , he kisses me there ,sucks at my skin and grabs my hair as he continues to kiss my neck. His teeth graze my collarbone and I moan once again. His hand moves to the top of my dress and he starts undressing me but I stop him by grabbing those long fingers .
" What's wrong ?" He asks with dark green lustful eyes ,searching my face for any sign .
" Um. . . .. I think we should take it a little slow ." I say .
He gets up and moves away from me but I pull him back on top of me ." Don't be upset . I mean I haven't had any experience before you . All this is so new for me . I just need some time. . . like you mentioned we should get to know each other first . " I tell him shyly.
" You mean you haven't had any boyfriend till now ......not even a single one ?! " He asks surprisingly .I shake my head and he smiles.
" Are you laughing at me ?" I ask narrowing my eyes .
" It's just a little weird . You are so hot and sexy." He says eyeing me top to bottom . I gasp at his words hot and sexy! His words makes my stomach flip and I feel it down there.
"You never had any interests in any boy ?" He asks .
" No ." I'm feeling so awkward having conversation about me and my interests . Genuinely I never felt attracted to anyone until Emir. He drives me mad in love, mad in anger ,mad about him . I feel like a deer in a lions trap .But I'm so content being that deer .
" Seriously!?" He teases me and I playfully swat his shoulder, he mock winces and laughs . I join in too.
We lie in bed cuddling for what feels like hours and I feel heavy in my head . . . so much has happened today . Everything has changed .
What about Dave and that fucking engagement ?I can't play with two boys . I'll have to do something about this. Maybe I can just tell Dave that I don't like him and ask him to cancel the engagement because if I say something to my parents they won't agree .
" That boy . .if he wasn't your boyfriend . Who was he then ? And Why did he came to drop you off?" Emir interrupts my thoughts .
My head is on his chest and he is playing with my hair. I look up at him and answer . . . .lie actually." He's my relative ." He looks at me with suspicion. "He was going to work so I asked him for a ride as I got late." I add trying to study his reaction.
" Oh " He says .
I know all these lies are going to be exposed very soon . But I can't tell him . . . . I have no courage . I know deep down that he'll leave me if he'll know the truth . I cannot lose him. After so much pain , crying and suffering we are together and I'll not let anyone ruin this now. . . . .not even me , by doing any kind of stupidity.
" What's wrong ? Is there something you want to tell me ? " He leans up on his elbows and looks at my face . I get up from his chest while shaking my head .
" It's dusk . I should go ." I say ,sadness clear in my voice as I'll have to leave Emir now.
" Can't you stay ? We can go to the university together today . "
" No. I really have to go . I have to freshen up and my family will worry if they don't see me . We'll meet soon in the university . " I offer.
" Okay . Come I'll drop you . " Oh no he cannot drop me . . . . .at this time . What if anyone sees us !? But I can't go alone also . Oh these lies . . . . they're gonna kill me one day.
I choose my safety over the silly fear of my parents . Its the fucking twenty-first century and I have the right to live my life the fucking way I want to . They cannot boss me around all the time .
" Okay . Let's go ." I purr silently wishing no one sees us together.
He takes my hand and we walk together to his car . Today, he has a new car . It's a white one . I recognise the sign on it. Its a BMW .
Some people are rich but he . . . .he is so much wealthy. He is insanely wealthy .
" Do you change your car every week?!" I ask him curiosity getting the best of me .
He chuckles and tells me ," No , not really . When I get bore of one I swap it ." His answer makes me intrusive. How many cars does he own!? Geez also he acts like this is absolutely normal.
"Oh I see." I am amused.
" Yeah. " He slides inside the car .I open the passenger door and join in .
I stare at him while he drives. He looks so adorable . His side profile . . . . .oh I'm a fan of him truly . He is like an intoxication . . . everytime I see him ,I just want to leave the whole world and look at him . . . .it will be so good if we are away from all this chaos . .these lies, only the both of us living our lives with happiness . . . .
" Is something there on my face? " He asks me interrupting my lovely daydream .
" Um. . . .no no . Actually yes there is ." I say lurkingly.
" What?" He asks.
" So much seriousness."
" Oh so do you want me to laugh while driving ?!" He smirks.
" Yes." I say .
" You're unbelievable . " He tells me .
" I know and I love it." I smile ." I mean you don't have to be so much serious at least you can keep a smiling face . I love to see happy people around me , it makes me feel good . " I elaborate and move my hand to his face to clear that crease between his brows . " You look pretty good like this . " I say and see him smile .
He turns on the radio. If I can't have you by Shawn Mendes is playing . I love this song and more than the song I love the singer. Shawn has been my favorite since I remember .
" I love this song ." I say to Emir .
" I don't . It's allright not so good . " He contradicts my opinion and I have to defend my favorite singer.
" Oh really . It's so fucking awesome . From now on don't say anything about Shawn's songs in front of me . If you don't like his songs you've got a very bad taste in music." I yell .
" Don't you think that was rude to yell at me for a singer?" He asks which surprises me .
" No I don't because he means more than just a singer to me ." I justify myself.
" More than me also ?"
" Um. . . . .yes I mean for now yes . We've just started getting to know each other . "
" So do you know him from childhood ?" Geez he's getting offended and I can see his face becoming red . Fuck I should've kept quiet.
" Emir listen I don't want you to be mad at me but I've liked him since I was twelve . We've just begun . Lets not fight please ." I try calming him down.
" I'm not fighting. You're the one who started yelling ." He says and looks away . " I don't want us fighting either ."He adds still looking at the road not at me .
"I'm sorry. I didn't mean to hurt you ." I shrug and smile up at him .
" I never knew you become so pissed so fast or should I say jealous ." I tease .
" I'm not jealous . I can understand your fandom because I also have it for some one special."
" Oh really that's great . You know what I just love Shawn so much. Yesterday I had a dream , he came and kissed me . " I say trying to figure out who the firl must be .
He laughs so hard that the car is filled with the sweet sound . . . .his laughter is the melodiest and sweetest sound I've heard . I've never seen him like this and I'm so proud of myself for making him laugh . I smile and let it go . I don't want us fighting over Shawn . He'll also feel bad if he knew . He's my favorite singer forever .
I never had a dream of Shawn and actually yesternight , I dreamt of Emir kissing me . . . . And I was just so angry at myself as we weren't getting along at all .But today that dream became a reality. I'm so glad we are together now . It's been a dream come true. Wow a dream come true, it feels like an achievement saying these four words . Actually when a dream becomes reality,the kick you get out of it is indescribable . You're on the seventh heaven .
I am lost in my own thoughts when Emir pulls out in front of my building . It's time to go to the reality Ashley . This night was like Cinderella's party night , really ,but she found her Prince a few days later but I have him today , my dear prince Emir .
I glance at the surroundings , no one is to be seen . Thank God .
" Goodbye . See you in four hours .". I say grinning like an idiot.
" Yeah . Bye. " He smiles .
I get out of the car and see him reverse it and going back . Then I quickly go in , change my clothes in the lift and head to my house. Very slowly I open the door , keep my boots on the shoerack and take large strides to my room .
Everything is under good control now . . . . actually for now because my life has changed since I met Emir , he makes me do things I never imagined I could do . When I'm fuming in anger , I wish to see him and when I'm dreaming in love , I only see his face . I want him to be with me for a lifetime. I very well know this is not going to happen . . . . .but I can dream . Maybe this dream will also come true . Maybe .
While I lay in bed , trying to sleep, I think of Emir and this long night .
Today I got very lucky and wasn't caught by anyone but this doesn't mean it'll be like this all the times , I need to do something but what . What can I possibly do to convince my parents let me go for nighouts .!? This seems more difficult than a Mathematical problem. Actually it really is .
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Dreams
Fanfiction" Dreams are not those which you see while sleeping Dreams are those which don't let you sleep " This is very rightly said by APJ Abdul Kalam . Girls live in dreams sometimes So this is an attempt to bring to you something you can surely relate...
