Finding A Home Amongst The Wolves

How far do mistakes go? Pt.2

~Crystal~

"You are not allowed to order me around. You lost all rights to me as a mate when you said those words. I may not know a lot about mates, but what I do know is that you're not meant to hurt me. I am not beneath you as your mate; I am to be loved, respected, and treated as your equal and yet you and Blake have shown us none of that. You call us your mate. You say mine this, mine that and I'm Luna this and I'm Luna that. I have to act a certain way as well please your every whim when not a single person in person actually knows me as an acting Luna. Tell me mate, how does that make a lick of sense? You want to say you have a mate but you will do nothing to maintain that bond. It's like saying you're a home owner but paying none of the bills. I am your mate; the heart of the pack, the bearer of our children, the calm to your storm, the queen to your king, and the shield to your heart and yet you treated me like the dirt on your foot. To you and to everyone not in your close knit circle I am your bed warmer but to the few people who know I am your mate I am treated as such by them. Until you figure out how this works Snow and I will be nowhere near you. We will be moving out at dusk so if you have any people to spare on your end make sure they don't slow us down."

Letting go of the hold I had on his neck I smell the faint scent of blood in the air as I get up and walk away. I made it to the door before I'm spun around and pushed against the wall beside the door. Hissing out, I'm breathing heavily in anger by the fact that he dare touch me now. Looking into his eyes I see the same fierce anger mirrored in his eyes that are in mine. 

His hand comes up to hold my neck in the same position I had him not too long ago. His hand grips my neck softly, much softer than I know he could hold me and I lightly feel a finger rub against the mating mark. 

Gulping down the yell I had ready for him I try to maintain my angry gaze as his look softens and he leans in so close that a stray hair couldn't get in-between us.

"You will always be my mate and it'll do you wise to remember that, but I agree that Blake and I haven't treated you as you deserve. I am more the dominant type, Blake is the one that shows everything else but we both will work on it with you. We will not lose our mate, I will not allow it. I will try and do everything in my power to earn the right to call you my mate once again. You are everything to us and we have been far too stupid and cocky to realize that. So that's why we ask of you to wait for us; wait for us to win your heart one last time and once we have it we'll guard it with everything we have. Give us one more chance to make it up to the both of you."

My mouth is open in yearning, I yearn to tell him yes but this isn't my decision alone. 

I was distracted by my thoughts and the thoughts of Snow when Shadow takes the chance to close the last of the distance between us and place his mouth on mine. 

The kiss was urgent and angry. 

No loving caress for us.

Too many hurt emotions to even think about having a soft kiss. 

My mouth opens on a growl and then his tongue is there battling with mine, trying to coax out more from me. 

The hand on my neck slides further up tilting my face up to a better angle so he can kiss me deeper. Angling his head he steps impossibly closer to me, almost crushing me into the wall. As his tongue dives into mouth again to entwine with mine his other hand slides down the length of me; stopping at my leg before pulling it up to rest against his hip. Ultimately giving himself more room to move closer. I feel his hardened length through the material of his jeans and it makes me curse the human form even more.

I want him inside me.

My body has heated up with the feel of him against me and I know if he was to slide into me right now then I would be more than ready. Without breaking the kiss I grab his shoulders and jump. Wrapping both legs around his waist, the action caused us to break apart so now I'm staring down at him from our slight height change panting softly. 

I've never been on this side before, it's actually quite a heady experience. Grabbing his face with both my hands I pull him back in for another kiss as I hear the sharp sound of ripping and then I feel air between my legs. I feel his claws ripping apart the material to get to my flesh.  

I feel him fumble with his own material before pulling my legs wider and holding them steady with his arms. My head collides with wall on a pleasured groan as he shoves in to the hilt and all of a sudden it's like an explosion and then he's moving fast inside me. 

He doesn't stop nor does he care about being gentle and it's okay cause that's what I need.

Right now I need the hard and fast to be sure of the connection that we had is still there. 

I'm just here, along for the ride but I'll be damned if I don't get off on this as well. 

I cant my hips in order to take him deeper, at a new angle and with his next thrust it hits deep. Hitting something deep inside me that makes me see stars. My eyes roll back into my head; my nails dig harder into his shoulders, my claws tearing at the skin and with a growl he picks up the pace even more.

I can feel his end coming just as I can feel mine. I'm reduced to a whimpering mess, pulling myself closer I wrap my arms around his neck. Shoving my nose into the junction where shoulder meets neck I breath in his musky scent that gets stronger from the sweat dripping off of him. I whimper again as he grips my legs harder and the muscles in my pussy spasm and then they lock and the only coherent thought I can manage is that i'm cumming so damn hard. It's like I'm squeezing him so hard that I can feel every ridge, bump and vein through the inner walls of my body. A snarl rips form my mouth from the pleasure and its like all of a sudden I'm flying higher. 

Shadow never once stops thrusting through it all, just changes the angle and keeps pushing harder and harder into me. At one point he thrusts all the way in me to the hilt and stills. I shiver in delicious pleasure as he starts to pump steady streams of cum inside me. 

I feel him lick my neck once before I feel his teeth lock down on my neck in another mating bite and all I can do is hold on tighter to him as he sends me off into another harsh orgasm. My walls squeeze and milk him for every drop he has. He doesn't let go of my neck until he's done and even then he doesn't pull out right away. His teeth leave my skin and his tongue comes out to sooth the burn and heal the wound. 

Only then when it's closed does he slowly pull out of me. He sets me down on shaky legs, keeping hold of me as he slides me down his body to the floor and it wasn't until I had righted myself did the shame hit me full force. 

This was my mate. He never showed me open love and affection but I let him have my body like I was some cheap whore. Pushing away from him and the wall I ignore him and his words as I walk out the door. It wasn't until I left and had the door fully shut behind me that I felt the tears travel down my face and I let Snow have free reign as I withdrew in full shame. 

I have never been more ashamed and disgusted with myself than I am now. 

The last thing I remember before I completely shut everything off and everything was dark, I shut the metaphorical door on reality, was Snow's heart broken sobs as she sat on our bed. 

Alone. 

My first mistake might have been the worst one.