Notes to self

This probably isnt good probably

Never did I ever think I would be the girl who was stuck up on 2 guys in the most cliche way too ones bad for me a one is all I think I ever wanted I say I think because I haven't pursued him yet but I have pursued the bad how cliche of me I wonder how did I end up with the bad when I knew the good first. I made a deal with the devil cause the line for Heaven was too long. So I took a short cut and I ended up right where you think unhappy and unsatisfied but if I was so unhappy and unsatisfied why am I still stuck on him idk he was addicting his touch was addicting his words were addicting but i don't want this story to end cliche so I backtracked and walked my ass right back into the line to Heaven even if it takes long but I must say the "good" he's no angel but he is a fucking saint to me the way I get lost in his eyes the way he somehow remembers small details about me he's so caring and kind oh how I wish his heart was mine he's one of the guys that gives you a fucking ride because he doesn't mind I wish being stuck on 2 guys was a fun as it sounds but it's not it wasn't in my plans and I choose a long time ago but I got impatient so I dropped a dime for a penny cause I was scared to be alone.im sorry I never get to my point of how I'm stuck up on the bad but my little time in hell I got comfortable and as I fucked the devil I wanted to be like him evil but charming I gave him my soul for some bits and pieces of love and attention enough of the bad I've been stuck on good for a year a whole year I think he likes me but he's good a keeping secrets I wish I would have waited for him but then again no cause the devil taught me a lot he taught me power before him I felt like I had no power that I would need others to survive he taught me it's ok to be alone and to be afraid but you better not be soft about it fuck I think he loved my body more than I did even if it was just lust but as I saw him loving my body I began to love it too I might not have the fattest ass or the biggest boobs but damn I look good I'm glad I met the devil before I went to heaven because he will teach you things that heaven might to be able to and sometimes you have to go through hell before you've reached heaven