Notes to self

Paths

The crazy part about me is this story will go however I want if I want to spend the rest of my time chasing heaven I will if I want to go back and chill in hell I will if I wanna go to the fuckin void I will it's all about  it choices and know one will ever know which one I choose unless I tell

Also I played ring around the Rosie with the devil in the most literal way this is me telling to about my choices I saw him again the devil I had a lot of fun when I saw him like always they way he looks at me like he's ready to go sin is a rush I tell ya lol he also apologized to me ?????? It was weird cause it was genuine but it was a real fast apology I almost didn't catch on to it with all the drugs in my system at that moment we were also surrounded by people so it was subtle he said "I'm sorry for being a dick" with his soft eyes but of course I didn't let into his apology I laughed in his face and patted him on his arm and walked away idk why he did it that night out of all the nights I begged for apology for my mental health just a small apology so I can feel better he did it when I didn't need anymore which I'm kinda glad ? Idk why he did it that night I was being so rude to him I literally told him to get the fuck outta my face move the fuck outta my way basically just a whole bitch which I'm not ashamed of either cause lol if I'm a bitch I'm that bitch dont forget so if your wondering how to beat the devil it's to match his energy even tho he was literally flirting with me the WHOLEEEEEE night but I could go on and on about all the shit that happened that night like how he threw water alllllllllllllllll over me or the play fighting but it was actually me gettting hit cause I knew if I actually hit him he would beat my mother fucking ass and that's why I do t play fight with him cause I know he could literally beat the shit outta me if I hit him to hard

This nigga blocked me ??????????????(yes I am black 100%)