I don't wanna leave him but Ik eventually one day I will have to fuck I'd rather him break my heart then me break his stg I can take it idk If he can he might but I never wanna figure it out I really care about him so I put his feelings before mine that sounds pitiful but to me it's not that's how I love and I never wanna change it because even through good and bad I have only the best intentions with him forever even when he makes me fuxkjng rage he might not feel the same but Im not "loving " him just to get "love" back I do it because I actually real life fucking care
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Notes to self
NonfiksiEssays of traumas which will either help me grow or continue to be my downfall guess I'll never know(I keep the typos in cause I'm not perfect and neither is my story) is Wrote the beginning chapters when I was 16 Mabey 17 I'm 18 now about to be 19
